Shit Happens (but mostly to me, so don't worry)

Well, there's nothing like the emotional equivalent of getting hit by a Mack truck to knock a lady off kilter...

And that means that I'm doing a mixed play list / random images post. Because it's much more enjoyable to you than listening to me get all emo on you. Plus it takes my mind off of the fact that I'm single again, and totally didn't see it coming.


This is how I wish I felt -

or





This how I do feel -


All the world just stopped now
So you say you don't wanna stay together anymore
Let me take a deep breath babe



Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well



(Okay, so this one isn't entirely true. I do know why I love him, and although I keep having moments of wishing that my heart had given me a chance, I really don't regret it. I only regret that there was so little time...
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
...
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do

ANOTHER HUNDRED

1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED? closed

2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTEL? Depends on if it's decent quality or not.

3. HAVE YOU EVER 'DONE IT' IN A HOTEL ROOM? Yup

4. HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE? Nope. I did take home an abandoned 'Men Working' sign once.

5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES? What a bizarre question. I suppose so. At least, I don't dislike using them.

6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM? I used to. Now I just don't bother to cut them out!

7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES? Um, neither? If I had to choose, I suppose the bees. I'm only slightly allergic, so I figure that I'll have a much great chance of survival.

8. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES? Nope. I'm not smiling in some of my favorite pictures of myself.

9. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR NEW YEARS? Went to a rave in Montreal with Jason and Scott. It was amazing. I had a really great time, and am looking forward to my next one!

10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? People who would rather give up immediately than try, or those with out intellectual curiosity.

11. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RESIDING IN THE CURRENT CITY YOU LIVE IN? Um, 4 days 1 hour and 33 minutes.

12. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK? Um, yes I do. Is this a bad thing?

13. HAVE YOU EVER PEED IN THE WOODS? Well, when you're camping in the woods, you don't have much of a choice, now do you?

14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERE'S NO MUSIC PLAYING? If I'm home by myself, yes.

15. DO YOU EVER CHEW ON YOUR PENS OR PENCILS? Not for years & years.

16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK? How is this any of you business?

17. DO YOU LIKE POPCORN FROM THOSE BIG TINS? I don't dislike it...

18. WHAT IS YOUR "SONG OF THE WEEK"? Ground, by Assemblage 23

19. IS IT OKAY FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK? Sure. Why wouldn't it be?

20. FAVORITE FISH? Betas

21. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE SCARY MOVIE? Um, Ringu probably.

22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME? If I told you then it wouldn't be a good hiding place any more, now would it?

23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER? water

24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN? BBQ sauce, or Sweet & Sour sauce. I don't eat chicken nuggets that often though.

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD/ CUISINE? fajitas or Italian food.

26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AND STILL LOVE? Night Watch, The Labyrinth, Hackers, you know, just go to my myspace page & look at the list there if you really want to know. *Smiles*

27. LAST PERSON YOU KISSED? Jason

28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT? Nope.

29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE? In a magazine? No thanks.

30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE? A couple of months ago.

31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR? Sadly, no. I would like to learn though. Any one of you out there want to teach me? *smiles*

32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET? Nope. :)

33. RAN OUT OF GAS? Yes. Damn Chevy S-10...

34. FAVORITE KIND OF SANDWICH? Italian roast beef & sharp Cheddar, with lettuce, tomatoes, red & green peppers (roasted, or raw) and honey mustard, on a whole wheat roll.

35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST? Pancakes. With real Vermont maple syrup. And berries of some kind.

36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME? 10:30ish

37. ARE YOU LAZY? No. At least, I don't think so.

38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN? Lots of different things.

39. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BOUGHT? A black velvet brocade halter top to wear on New Year's Eve.

40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK? Only one so far, but I'm learning a second.

41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS?: No, but I probably should have subscriptions to Psychology Today, Scientific American Mind, National Geographic, New Scientist, and Scientific American since I buy them all the time.

42. WHICH ARE BETTER LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS? Legos, although both are pretty great.

43. ARE YOU STUBBORN? *Laughs* Yeah, I am.

44. WHO IS BETTER...LENO OR LETTERMAN? Craig Ferguson

45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS? Not unless I'm home visiting. Then I'll watch General Hospital with my mom.

46. AFRAID OF HEIGHTS?: More than I used to be. I need to remedy that soon!

47. SING IN THE CAR? Hell yeah.

48. DANCE IN THE SHOWER? Um, sing, yes. Dance, no. I don't really want to fall on my arse & hurt myself!

49. DANCE IN THE CAR? *L* How is that even physically possible?

50. EVER USED A GUN? Yup

51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER? 2001

52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY? Nah

53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL? Sometimes.

54. EVER EAT A DOG? Huh? A dog? As in a canine, or a hot dog? No, and yes. (In that order.)

55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE? Strawberry-rhubarb

56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID? Psychiatrist, Veterinarian, Forest Fire Fighter, Storm Chaser, Marine Biologist

57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? yes

58. WHAT'S THE FIRST WORD THAT COMES TO MIND RIGHT NOW? Tasty. (I could explain this one, but I think it'll be more fun not too!

59. TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY? I try to.

60. WEAR SLIPPERS? I love my slippers.

61. WEAR A BATH ROBE? On occasion.

62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED? Jammies. As to what kind, unless you're going to see me in them, it's none of your damn business!

63. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE KIND OF CAKE? Mmm, cake...

64. WAL-MART, TARGET OR K-MART? Target

65. NIKE OR ADIDAS? neither?

66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS? both gross

67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS? eh, either

68. EVER HEAR OF "GORP"? Sounds vaguely familiar, but I don't know why.

69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS? Yup

70. MOST RECENT MOVIE YOU'VE WATCHED IN A THEATER? The Prestige

71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? no

72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE? *laughs* You're kidding, right?

73. EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY? Yes, yes I have.

74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS? Nope

75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER? nope

76. REGULARLY BURN INCENSE? nope. I'm a scented oil or candle sort of girl.

77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? Yes

78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT? The Cure, APB, New Model Army (again), Assemblage 23, Gary Numan (again), The Levellers, t.A.T.u., Tori Amos

79. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Transylvanian Concubine by Rasputina

80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA? Hot

81.TEA OR COFFEE? both

82. FAVORITE KIND OF COOKIE? Oatmeal chocolate chip

83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL? yes

84.CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH W/O MANUALLY HOLDING YOUR NOSE? yup

85. ARE YOU PATIENT? I try to be

86. DJ OR BAND, AT A WEDDING? Depends on the band. In general though, DJ

87. EVER WON A CONTEST? Yup

88. EVER HAVE PLASTIC SURGERY? no

89. WHICH ARE BETTER BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES? neither

90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET? I used to be able to knit. I can't remember how to now though.

91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE? Living room

92. IF YOU COULD USE ONLY ONE FORM OF TRANSPORTATION FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
A Luck Dragon

93. WHAT TYPE OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A clean one.

94. WHO WAS/IS YOUR CRUSH? None of your damn business! My, you sure are nosey! He knows who he is. *grins* And chances are, if you're reading this, you know too.

95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY? Hell no

96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Nope.

97. DO YOU WANT KIDS? Not really.

98. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? Purple, blue, black, silver, gray

99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW? There are a couple of people I miss.

100. WHO DO YOU WANNA SEE RIGHT NOW? Jason, Tiff, Bev, Irene

55 Random Questions

Tired of those same old 55 questions about me surveys? Well here are 55 I guarantee you've never answered.

1. Is your second toe longer than your first? nope

2. Do you have a favorite type of pen? I actually really like the cheap ballpoint click pens, with black ink.

3. Look at your planner for March 14, what are you doing? *laughs* I don't have a planner!

4. What color are your toenails usually? Brown, and black. Lately they've started turning this most interesting green color as well... Maybe I should get that checked out...

5. What was the last thing you highlighted? I have no idea...

6. What color are your bedroom curtains? I don't have any right now.

7. What color are the seats in your car? clear

8. Have you ever had a black and white cat? Nope

9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on? an envelope

10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming? Nope

11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time? Because I needed cash...

12. Who is the last baby that you held? Cokie

13. Do you know of any twins with rhyming names? Nope, although I do know three sets of twins.

14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste? Yes. Mostly because I don't like mint. (It's a long story, and involves tequila and the errors of youth...)

15. What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago? Public transportation! :)

16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators: This are sports teams, right?

17. Last time you went to Six Flags? Never been.

18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house? Nope

19. Closest thing to you that is yellow: A highligter

20. Last person to give you a business card? Becky T.

21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to? My old landlord.

22. Closest framed picture to you? There aren't any near me that I can see..

23. Last time you had someone cook for you? Bev, a couple of weeks ago.

24. Have you ever applied for welfare? Nope

25. How many emails do you have? Too many. I really need to reply to folks.

26. Last time you received flowers? Last Valentine's Day

27. Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man & woman? Hell no!

28. What's your wager? I'm all in. After all, I'm playing to win...

29. Do you play air guitar? Nope

30. Do you take anything in your coffee? It depends on how I feel at the time.

31. Do you have any Willow Tree figurines? Nope

32. What is your high school's rival mascot? We really weren't big enough to have a rival.

33. Last person you spoke to from high school? Tiff

34. Last time you used hand sanitizer? Last week.

35. Would you like to learn to play the drums? Sure, but I'd like to learn to play the cello more.

36. What color are the blinds in your living room? white

37. What is in your inbox at work? If only!

38. Last thing you read in the newspaper? The help wanted section.

39. What was the last pageant you attended? Never been to one.

40. What is the last place you bought pizza from? Pizza Hut

41. Have you ever worn a crown? Only a paper one.

42. What is the last thing you stapled? papers

43. did you ever drink crystal Pepsi? not that I know of...

44. Are you ticklish? That's classified information, thank you!

45. Last time you saw fireworks? 4th of July, 2005 I think...

46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut? It's been months.

47. Who is the last person that left you a message & you actually returned their call? Kelly from VSAC.

48. Last time you parked under a carport? Many years ago...

49. Do you have a black dog? no

50. Do you have any pickles in your fridge? Nope

51. Are you an aunt or uncle? Not by blood. It's more of an honorary term for me.

52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of? Prettiest? Not sexiest, most captivating. lose myself in eyes? Prettiest would probably be Cokie. That little girl is going to grow up unto a stunning young lady.

53. Last time you saw a semi truck? *shrugs* Sometime last week.

54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe? Kind of?

55. Do you have a little black dress? Yes, a wonderful, little black goth dress.

100 Quick Questions

001. real name → If you don't know it, I'm not telling!

002. nickname → Aeryn

003. single or taken → taken

004. zodiac sign → Sagittarius

005. male or female → Female

006. elementary → NES

008. high → NHS

010. hair color → Blond

011. long or short → Short, but getting longer

015. are you health freak → No, but I do try to stay healthy. I don't think that there is anything freakish about that.

016. height → 5'4"

017. do you have a crush on someone → It's kind of more than a crush...

018. do you like yourself → Yup

019. piercings → Ears, and one other place...

020. tattoos → Only one so far, but there will be more.

021. righty or lefty → Righty


FIRSTS :

022. first surgery → Getting my wisdom teeth pulled.

023. first piercing → Ears

024. first best friend → Tanya

025. first award → Don't remember...

026. first sport you joined → Soccer (Yes, I know that's going to surprise some of you!)

027. first pet → A German Shepard named Jenna

028. first vacation → Camping in Groton.

029. first concert → Um, my first concert was Geoff Moore and the Distance, with my youth group. The first non Christian concert was Green Day.

030. first crush → Wayne B. in elementary school.


CURRENTLY :

049. eating → nothing

050. drinking → water

055. waiting for → Nothing. I'm going after the things I want. After all, it's not likely that I'm going to get them if I just sit around waiting.

057. wearing → Black velvet PJ bottoms, black tank top, and a black hoodie.



YOUR FUTURE :

058. want kids → no thanks

059. want to get married → I won't say no, but I'm a bit hesitant about the whole idea of it. I'm sure that when it's the right person I won't have any doubts...

060. careers in mind → Several, actually. Right now I'm focusing on actually getting into college, finally.


WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

068. lips or eyes → Depends on the person, really.

069. hugs or kisses → I'd like both, thanks.

070. shorter or taller → Taller, but really, it doesn't matter all that much.

072. romantic or spontaneous → Don't these two tend to go hand in hand?

073. nice stomach or nice arms→ Mm, yes please...

074. sensitive or loud → Sensitive

075. hook-up or relationship → Relationship

076. Have you ever been kissed? → Yup *laughs*

077. trouble maker or hesitant? → Neither. I'd rather have a self-confident person who knows how to have fun, when it's the right time and place.


HAVE YOU EVER :

078. kissed a stranger → Nope

079. drank bubbles → *laughs* Hell no!

080. lost glasses/contacts → On a regular basis, but I always find them again!

081. ran away from home → Yes

082. broken any bones → No

084. broken some one's heart → I have, unfortunately.

085. been arrested → *grins* Wouldn't you like to know...

086. turned someone down → Yup

087. cried when someone died → Yes

088. liked a friend → Yes, but who hasn't?


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. yourself → Yes

090. miracles → Yup

091. love at first sight → Yes and no at the same time.

092. heaven → Kind of...

093. santa clause → *laughs* Not for at least 20 years!

094. sex on the first date → It would depend on the person...

095. kissing on the first date → Same as my answer to #94

096. angels → As in white clad celestial beings with wings that grant wishes? Not so much...


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one or more people you want to be with right now?
Yup...

098. With someone as company right now:
No

099. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?
Hell no!

100. do you believe in god?
I believe in something...
YES