On moving to Burlington

I am no one's daughter. I stand alone in this city. This wilderness of concrete and brick.
Untie these silver ribbons. Allow me to spread my wings. They itch at my back, wanting to stretch out. I want to fly. I want to rise above these walls.
I wonder what I am doing in this city. I long for country, for mountains and trees, yes, even if it means the snow as well.
All this insanity astounds me. Could I ever show the insanity in my own mind? Open spaces seem to quiet it. It echos off the brick and concrete here.

Poetry

gazing with wondering eyes
I look up to the sky
I touch my new found wings
I have discovered that I can fly

lift me up high
floating on the breeze
I can do all I want
every moment I will seize

wind spin me round
let me live this joy inside
within I have all I want
I can be my own guide
02-01



I felt the stars collide at your touch
I saw heaven within your eyes and hand
I didn't think I would want this so much
in your arms I find a safe place to land

all the sky diamonds shine for us tonight
the moon smiles her beauty on you and I
bathing us in such a radiant light
kiss me here, under the blanket of sky

as we touched, I felt the world spinning round
only for us the wind sang it's silent song
didn't know I was lost until I was found
when I am not near you, time is ever long
take my hand and fly away with me now
under pale moonlight I will show you how
02/06/01


looking into the night sky
moon above give me joy
show me brightness in the sky
give me something life will not destroy

bathe me tonight
in a divine fire
purge me of these things
rid me of love and desire

wind sing me a song
of the desolation of night
guide me on my path
for I have lost my light
02/10/01



I would cry tears of blood
to end this pain within
to control this rage
to allow a new self to begin

I scream in silent voice
for strength, an unheard plea
my cries have all been lost
in the turbulence of this sea

I reach with broken hands
for something that is untold
I don't know who stole my dreams
but they have all been sold
02-28-01

Poetry

Where does love go when it is lost
do the years eat it away
nibbling around the edges until it is gone
or does it simply fade away
a pressed rose left out in the sun
petals brittle, faded & cracked
crumbling to dust when touched
savage wind blowing it all away
clouds slipping to cover the sun
cover these wounds left in my heart
bleeding holes I don't know how to fill
clouds creating a darkness worse than night
standing alone, no protection from the rain
I wonder where did our love go
how did we let it slip away
out here all alone I know I won't return
1-4-01



curled into a ball of pain
as this fragile kingdom
crashes at my feet
I never wanted this life
I never asked for your love
but I never thought I'd admit defeat

I loved you in the best way I could
still it was never quite enough
to make you give yourself to me
you stayed high above on your throne
if I was your queen or slave, I was never sure
all I could do couldn't make you see

once, you were everything to me
every wish, and dream, and hopeful stare
didn't you know, all I could see was you
thoughtless words that broke me down
spending your charm on every woman but me
I was alone by your side, what else could I do?

returned again to you your crown
no longer reigning sorrow at your side
slipped quietly off this golden throne
I will find my way in the world alone
strength and hope will be my guides
don't you see, I was never yours to own
01-09-01



if I could I would burn down heaven tonight
remove this all from my sight
find a way to gain control
tear down these walls in my soul
is there anyone out there I can truly trust?
or will my heart fade away, falling to dust?
As I cry, my tears make the stone
safe here inside, ever alone
1-17-01



I would sing down the stars
To be with you tonight
I would give anything
To have you in my sight

My empty arms ache
To hold you close to me
You are the only thing
These tired eyes want to see

I will curl under my blanket
With nothing here to hold
And go to sleep another night
These kisses left untold
01/17/01



I never knew
Love could be like this
Gentle and sweet
Such joy in our kiss

I never know
Love like the ocean
Quiet and depth less
A song with each motion

I always knew
Fire and passion soon burn away
But a love like water
Perhaps that can stay
01/21/01



Safe Within the Storm

A dark storm is brewing
Gray clouds are rolling in
Hush my dear sweet child
Think no more of sin

Rain clouds are falling
Portending the coming storm
Sleep now my dear one
My arms to keep you dry and warm

As lightning crashes overhead
Illuminating the night
Rest easy my little one
I will hold you in my sight
01-24-01