Okay, this one is for all those folks who I've attempted (poorly) to explain what having narcolepsy (or any neurological sleep disorder) is like. This was originally created on a sleep disorder message board I post at. (For those of you who didn't know, I have non-REM Narcolepsy.)
It was written as a joke more or less, but everything on the list is a symptom of having a neurological sleep disorder. Of course, not every one with narcolepsy has all the symptoms, the same ones, or the same severity of their symptoms. Most of us can relate to quite a few though. I know that when I read what was every one else had wrote I found myself nodding my head & smiling in recognition of many of my behaviors/symptoms. And laughing outright at quite a few also. If you find yourself doing the same, I highly suggest getting a sleep study!
You might have narcolepsy if..
-If your TV only has commercials.
-If the first place you check for missing items is the fridge.
I actually wish I had this problem still! I got myself to stop putting things in the fridge, but now I put them "in a safe place" where I'll be able to find them again. *laughs* Yeah, I wish I could find them again! It's usually such a safe place, that I can't remember where it is!
-If you stop mid-sentence twice a day to say "Oops!Forgot to take my meds!"
Yeah, I've done this before. Usually only 3 or 4 days a week though!
-If you require an interpreter to talk to people who speak your native language.
-If your college professor counted you absent because that one day your eyes were actually open and he didn't recognize you.
-If you often awaken with strange imprints on your forehead from things such as a computer keyboards.
-If 2 + 2 = 22 makes sense to you.
Just because it's not correct, doesn't mean it doesn't make sense!
-If you remember that you studied in the textbook (yes, the first 3 paragraphs on page one) and forgot to go to class to take the final exam. (You could swear you had class on Thursday, not Wednesday.)
-If one of your regular weekend chores is searching your house for randomly misplaced items.
*just laughs*
-If your co-workers take turns tapping you.
-If your side of a conversation consists mostly of "And then...wait, I think I was...what was I gonna say?"
Sadly, this happens way more than I'd like it to.
-If, when you see a spider on your wall, you envy his ability to keep moving, but realize he is probably really a figment of your imagination.
Yup, I've had these moments too!
-If you have a clock on every wall in your house and all of them are purposely set ahead to different times so you'll always think "It's time to go!"
-If you've never seen a whole feature film, but appreciate the longer ones because you actually wake up before it's over and you can see the end.
-If you use your driver's license to regularly check the spelling of your name before signing a check or formal document.
I have never done this. However, I do have to say that I've had to stop and think about how to spell my name more than once.
-If you have a 10 hour or more delay on memory retrieval.
-If you have memorized or carry in your wallet a list of "Why I'm Late for Work" excuses for 250 days of the year plus one for leap year.
-If you have to put lunch on your "to do" list.
Now if only I'd remember to read my to do list!
-If you've trained your dog to turn on the coffee maker, pull the covers off you in the morning when your alarm goes off, and prod you into the shower.
I would love to have a dog that does all that.
-If you have more than 3 sticky notes on your bathroom mirror daily and one of them says "Don't forget to read your sticky notes".
I haven't done this one, but it sounds like something I'd do!
-If you've forgotten your own birthday.
Yup, done that too!
-If you feel like you're trapped inside an invisible time machine that thrusts you forward in time in random 2 hour spurts.
*laughs* Yup, I'm very familiar with this one!
-If "yawn" is a four-letter word in your house.
yup
-If "NIGHT is to DAY as SLEEP is to ____" sounds like an unsolvable riddle.
I think that this is a trick question of some sort!
-If you function better when you are under the influence of amphetamines.
Significantly better in fact.
-If your weight loss is linked to memory loss.
Yup
-If you can remember to call your doctor, but you can't remember why.
-If Santa Claus hits your house around noon on Christmas because that's when you're most likely to be unconscious.
-If every time you pass a cop on the road you think to yourself, I hope he didn't see me nod off.
This is one of the reasons I don't drive.
-If you tell people at least twice a day that, "I am so sorry, but I'm absolutely exhausted, and I can not believe that I did that."
-If you tell people the above, and they respond, "What are you talking about, you say that you're absolutely tired everyday!"
-If your boss starts trying to work it so that you can go home at regular hours to get some rest and even is willing to take on duties to do it.
-If you're too tired to sleep.
-If regularly hallucinating when you fall asleep &/or wake up is normal and you are shocked when you realize that not everyone experiences this.
-If you take a drug and experience being awake for the first time in a long time/if ever and think that being awake is the most novel thing on this earth.
I remember that feeling! It really was the most novel thing on earth. I kept thinking of all the things I'd be able to do now that I could stay awake for more than 2 hours at a time.
-If you take a drug and are able to remember the entire drive to work and are shocked by that fact.
-If your doctor can ask you to spend the night without losing his license.
-If "deja vu" crosses your lips at least 5 times a day but draws worried glances from people nearby who just watched you repeat the same behavior.
-If the phrase "rest home" sounds like heaven.
-If "let me slip into something more comfortable" generally means sweats.
-If the lights go out in your office every 5 minutes ever since the management had motion detector sensors installed.
-If there's a good reason your significant other doesn't know what color your eyes are.
-If your children offer tic-tacs to people who doze off in front of them.
-If you praise yourself every time you remember something before it is too late.
*giggles* Yup
-If you've trained yourself to bite the inside of your cheeks to keep your lips tight so you won't drool when you doze in public settings.
I keep meaning to try this...
-If you usually beat your computer to hibernation mode.
-If your dog brings you a treat for remembering to let her out to pee.
-If you have ever put the phone it the fridge only to find it later and replace it with a roll of toilet paper.
-If you have to heat the toilet paper with a hair dryer so you don't get frost bite on your butt because the toilet paper was left in the fridge.
-If your friends talk to the answering machine more than they talk to you.
I'm very guilty of this one.
-If you feel like you have a hangover but missed the party.
This one too. It has been better lately though.
-If you can't remember to whom you are speaking when you made the phone call.
-If you can't remember to whom you are speaking as you stand in front of them.
-If you can't remember if you spoke to anyone yesterday, or if it was all a dream.
-If all of the sudden there are no clean underwear even though you are sure you just did laundry.
This happens to me all the time!
-If most of your interesting tales stop abruptly with, "Oh wait, that was a dream."
-If having someone else clean your house sounds like torture...how would you find anything if someone else put it away? You can't even remember where you put it!
-If you open the same drawer 4 or more times in a row with the hopes that this time that missing item will be in there.
I'm very guilty of this one. I don't know why I do this. I know that what ever I'm looking for isn't going to magically appear.
-If you said yes to something and dreamt you did it, but never really did.
-If you can watch your cat sleep and explain the different stages of sleep as they go through them.
-If you dread hearing the phrase "What was I just saying?" more than pop quizzes in astrophysics.
-If you send the same bill 3 times and still find that check written out for that bill on your kitchen table.
-If your doctor has mistakenly sent you 'narcotics anonymous' instead of 'narcolepsy support group', and you still seem to fit right in.
-If being on prescription stimulants helps you to lead a productive lifestyle which eliminates 3 out of the 5 naps you used to take.
-If 'productive' to you means actually starting and finishing at least one thing in a day!
-If the last place your significant other looks for his clean clothes is in the closet or the dresser drawers.
-If your significant other is no longer surprised by finding car keys, shoes, etc. in the fridge.
-If you get up to go to the bathroom and halfway there forget where you were going.
Sadly, yes, this has happened!
-If you can fall asleep on a roller coaster.
-If you need naps more than your toddler does.
-If you have to constantly ask someone "did this actually happen or was I dreaming?".
-If you are absolutely positive you paid that bill, you remember it vividly, you can even tell what check # and everything only to discover that the check is still in the book and there is nothing on it.
-If you can eat dinner and five minutes later have no idea what you just ate or if you ever did.
-If the statement "I have so much to do right now I'd better go to sleep." makes perfect sense.
Hell yeah it does!
-If you regularly rediscover for the first time that a side effect of your medication is memory loss and are thrilled to have an explanation for your bad memory.
Really? It is? That's great! Wait, I think I heard this before somewhere...
-If you have to read the same things over and over and over and over.
-If you promise to call a friend on Saturday, and it's Thursday before you realize that Saturday has come and went.
I feel really, really bad when I do this! Thank you all for being so understanding with me!
-If you're not a truck driver, but you know every truck stop from here to Canada because you've slept in 'em all.
-If you have to make an appointment with yourself to remember to make your appointment, and then you forget whether or not to make a reminder call to remind yourself to remind you, or to just remind yourself that you remembered.
-If you totally understand the previous statement and remembered that you have an appointment tomorrow at 5:00pm and you forgot to remind yourself.
*giggles* Actually, I do and I did!
-If you know all the Serta Mattress sheep by first name.
-If you are not sure if the change in meds cause more micro sleeps or make it so that you are more alert and therefore notice more micro sleeps, and you spend hours trying to figure it out, because you really want to know.
I really do want to know, but I haven't figured it out yet!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Leaving me comments!
I know that there are folks out there, and reading my blog faithfully. I also know that some of you have said that you would leave me comments, but you didn't know how to. I'm gonna fix that for you right now!
If you scroll all the way down to the bottom of this post, you'll see a line that tells you what time & date I posted this blog, and just to the right of it it says "0 Comments" or what ever number of comments there are for this post. (Most of this line will be in blue.)
If you click on "(#) comments" it will take you at a page where you can leave a comment, and/ or read the comments other people have posted.
You can leave a comment with your own Blogger ID if you have one. (Your Google ID might work, I'm not sure.) Or if you don't have one, you can select Other and put in your name.
Type in your comment, and hit "Publish Comment" and you're all set!
And yes, I will occasionally comment on your comments, so check back every now & then. :)
I hope this was helpful.
If you scroll all the way down to the bottom of this post, you'll see a line that tells you what time & date I posted this blog, and just to the right of it it says "0 Comments" or what ever number of comments there are for this post. (Most of this line will be in blue.)
If you click on "(#) comments" it will take you at a page where you can leave a comment, and/ or read the comments other people have posted.
You can leave a comment with your own Blogger ID if you have one. (Your Google ID might work, I'm not sure.) Or if you don't have one, you can select Other and put in your name.
Type in your comment, and hit "Publish Comment" and you're all set!
And yes, I will occasionally comment on your comments, so check back every now & then. :)
I hope this was helpful.
As if I needed any extra motivation right now!
Not much to say today. Thought I'd share a little bit about all the oh-so-wonderful changes going on at my job. (Yes yes that was supposed to be sarcastic!) Once again, Drew from Toothpaste for Dinner is going to help me out. :)
This just about sums all of it up-
Well, I'd like to add this one too-
Sadly, we even have to bring in our own water. Well, that's not entirely true. We could drink the bleach filled water from the bathroom sink.
If I was allowed do this -
I would be much more happy at work.
As soon as I know where I'm going to be living next month, I'm going to find a new job. It amazing really, the difference a couple of weeks can make. Two weeks ago, I enjoyed my job. Today on the other hand, I was so angry I was actually shaking, and it took all of my self control not to quit. *shrugs* Oh well, it's just extra motivation to get my ass in gear and finally get myself to collage!
This just about sums all of it up-
Well, I'd like to add this one too-
Sadly, we even have to bring in our own water. Well, that's not entirely true. We could drink the bleach filled water from the bathroom sink.
If I was allowed do this -
I would be much more happy at work.
As soon as I know where I'm going to be living next month, I'm going to find a new job. It amazing really, the difference a couple of weeks can make. Two weeks ago, I enjoyed my job. Today on the other hand, I was so angry I was actually shaking, and it took all of my self control not to quit. *shrugs* Oh well, it's just extra motivation to get my ass in gear and finally get myself to collage!
Monday, December 04, 2006
Yup, it's winter
We got our first snowfall today. Not that it was much of a snowfall. It wasn't even enough for me to wear my new boots. It's the only thing about winter I'm looking forward to. Which is one more thing than most years, by the way.
I'm personally thankful that I didn't hear even one person lament the lack of snow. I feel the same way about those people as Drew, the writer of Toothpaste for Dinner feels-
While it is true that we haven't had a lot of snow, it has been damn cold here. For instance, it's a whopping 7 degrees out there right now. And that doesn't even include the wind chill. I can't wait to move out of this state!
I'm personally thankful that I didn't hear even one person lament the lack of snow. I feel the same way about those people as Drew, the writer of Toothpaste for Dinner feels-
While it is true that we haven't had a lot of snow, it has been damn cold here. For instance, it's a whopping 7 degrees out there right now. And that doesn't even include the wind chill. I can't wait to move out of this state!
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
ONE WORD
YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD.
NO EXPLANATIONS!
NOT AS EASY AS YOU MAY THINK.
1. YOURSELF: independent
2. YOUR GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND: nope
3. YOUR HAIR?: short
4. YOUR MOTHER?: amazing
5. YOUR FATHER?: sucks
6. YOUR FAVORITE ITEM: notebook
7. YOUR DREAM LAST NIGHT: mundane
8. YOUR FAVORITE DRINK: water
9. YOUR DREAM CAR: vintage
10. THE ROOM YOU ARE IN: scanning
11. YOUR EX: sweet
12. YOUR FEAR: frostbite
13. WHAT YOU WANT TO BE IN 10 YEARS: myself
14. WHO YOU HUNG OUT WITH LAST NIGHT?: Patience
15. WHAT YOU'RE NOT?: greedy
16. MUFFINS: tasty
17: ONE OF YOUR WISH LIST ITEMS: laptop
18: TIME: afternoon
19. THE LAST THING YOU DID: blogged
20. WHAT YOU ARE WEARING: clothes
21. YOUR FAVORITE WEATHER: warm
22. YOUR FAVORITE BOOK: dog-eared
23. THE LAST THING YOU ATE: fruit
24. YOUR LIFE: exciting
25. YOUR MOOD: happy
26. YOUR SPORT: hahaha!
27. WHO ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW? Jason
29. WHAT ARE YOU DOING AT THE MOMENT?: chatting
30. YOUR SUMMER: short
31. BEST PART OF YOUR LIFE: now
NO EXPLANATIONS!
NOT AS EASY AS YOU MAY THINK.
1. YOURSELF: independent
2. YOUR GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND: nope
3. YOUR HAIR?: short
4. YOUR MOTHER?: amazing
5. YOUR FATHER?: sucks
6. YOUR FAVORITE ITEM: notebook
7. YOUR DREAM LAST NIGHT: mundane
8. YOUR FAVORITE DRINK: water
9. YOUR DREAM CAR: vintage
10. THE ROOM YOU ARE IN: scanning
11. YOUR EX: sweet
12. YOUR FEAR: frostbite
13. WHAT YOU WANT TO BE IN 10 YEARS: myself
14. WHO YOU HUNG OUT WITH LAST NIGHT?: Patience
15. WHAT YOU'RE NOT?: greedy
16. MUFFINS: tasty
17: ONE OF YOUR WISH LIST ITEMS: laptop
18: TIME: afternoon
19. THE LAST THING YOU DID: blogged
20. WHAT YOU ARE WEARING: clothes
21. YOUR FAVORITE WEATHER: warm
22. YOUR FAVORITE BOOK: dog-eared
23. THE LAST THING YOU ATE: fruit
24. YOUR LIFE: exciting
25. YOUR MOOD: happy
26. YOUR SPORT: hahaha!
27. WHO ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW? Jason
29. WHAT ARE YOU DOING AT THE MOMENT?: chatting
30. YOUR SUMMER: short
31. BEST PART OF YOUR LIFE: now
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Another questionnaire thing
SINGLE OR TAKEN: single
EYE COLOR: blue-grey, but they change depending on what my mood is, & what I'm wearing
SHOE SIZE: Why, are you going to buy me some shoes?
HEIGHT: 5'4'
RIGHTY OR LEFTY: righty, although I play pool left handed
CAN YOU MAKE A DOLLAR IN CHANGE RIGHT NOW: nope
__________________________________________________________________
HAVE YOU EVER...
GIVEN ANYONE A BATH: Hm, no, but it could be fun! (Yup, I have a dirty mind, I know!)
BUNGEE JUMPED: not yet
SKINNY DIPPED: yes
LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY: Hasn't everyone?
BROKEN A BONE: no
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE: yes
BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT: no
BEEN ON A PLANE: yes
CAME CLOSE TO DYING: Yes, more than once.
RAN AWAY: From home, or from my problems? Well, either way, it's yes.
BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART: Unfortunately, yes
CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: Since I'm not heartless, yes
FELL OFF YOUR CHAIR: *laughs* Okay, this is a random question. I'm sure that I have at some point when I was drunk.
SAT BY THE PHONE ALL NIGHT WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO CALL: Not for many years. I have a life, and lots of things to keep me busy. If some one doesn't call with in a reasonable time frame of when they say they will, I'm not going to put my entire life on hold for them.
SAVED AIM CONVERSATIONS: Yeah. That's one of the reasons I love gmail. It automatically archives everything for me. :)
MADE OUT WITH JUST A FRIEND: Not if I didn't already have more than friendly feelings toward him.
USED SOMEONE: No, I don't think so. I'm too independent and stubborn for that. Plus, it's a rotten thing to do!
BEEN CHEATED ON: Yes I have.
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DO YOU...
BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Kind of? I believe in recognition of some one who you have known and loved before, in a previous life.
BELIEVE IN LONG DISTANT RELATIONSHIPS: I suppose it could work. I think that it depends on how long the distance is, how often you get to see each other, and how close you were before it became a long distance relationship. It certainly makes it a hell of a lot more difficult. Of course, that being said, one of my very dearest friends lives literally half way around the world, and I have yet to meet her in person.
LIKE SCHOOL: I love learning anything new, but I wasn't so fond of school.
QUESTION YOURSELF: No more than any one else. Probably less than many people.
HAVE A LAVA LAMP: Nope.
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WHO:
WAS THE LAST PERSON THAT CALLED YOU: Jason
MAKES YOU SMILE THE MOST: My cat. These people also make me smile a lot - Bev, Tiff, Jason, Irene, Leni & Trevor.
KNOWS YOU THE BEST: Tiff, Patience, Bev and Kyle
WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO SAW/HEARD YOU CRY: It's been a while since any one has seen me cry. Kyle probably, or maybe Bev.
WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY: Kyle, and some one who I mistakenly thought was a better friend than she was.
__________________________________________________________________
FINAL QUESTIONS:
WHAT DID YOU DO YESTERDAY: Went to work, went to the gym, goofed off on line for a bit.
WHAT CAR/TRUCK DO YOU WISH TO HAVE: Well, I wouldn't kick a BMW 507 out of my driveway! Look at the lines on that thing! It's one sexy car.
HOW MANY REMOTE CONTROLS ARE IN YOUR HOUSE: Too many
ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED: Yes I am. *grins*
EYE COLOR: blue-grey, but they change depending on what my mood is, & what I'm wearing
SHOE SIZE: Why, are you going to buy me some shoes?
HEIGHT: 5'4'
RIGHTY OR LEFTY: righty, although I play pool left handed
CAN YOU MAKE A DOLLAR IN CHANGE RIGHT NOW: nope
__________________________________________________________________
HAVE YOU EVER...
GIVEN ANYONE A BATH: Hm, no, but it could be fun! (Yup, I have a dirty mind, I know!)
BUNGEE JUMPED: not yet
SKINNY DIPPED: yes
LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY: Hasn't everyone?
BROKEN A BONE: no
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE: yes
BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT: no
BEEN ON A PLANE: yes
CAME CLOSE TO DYING: Yes, more than once.
RAN AWAY: From home, or from my problems? Well, either way, it's yes.
BROKEN SOMEONE'S HEART: Unfortunately, yes
CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: Since I'm not heartless, yes
FELL OFF YOUR CHAIR: *laughs* Okay, this is a random question. I'm sure that I have at some point when I was drunk.
SAT BY THE PHONE ALL NIGHT WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO CALL: Not for many years. I have a life, and lots of things to keep me busy. If some one doesn't call with in a reasonable time frame of when they say they will, I'm not going to put my entire life on hold for them.
SAVED AIM CONVERSATIONS: Yeah. That's one of the reasons I love gmail. It automatically archives everything for me. :)
MADE OUT WITH JUST A FRIEND: Not if I didn't already have more than friendly feelings toward him.
USED SOMEONE: No, I don't think so. I'm too independent and stubborn for that. Plus, it's a rotten thing to do!
BEEN CHEATED ON: Yes I have.
__________________________________________________________________
DO YOU...
BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Kind of? I believe in recognition of some one who you have known and loved before, in a previous life.
BELIEVE IN LONG DISTANT RELATIONSHIPS: I suppose it could work. I think that it depends on how long the distance is, how often you get to see each other, and how close you were before it became a long distance relationship. It certainly makes it a hell of a lot more difficult. Of course, that being said, one of my very dearest friends lives literally half way around the world, and I have yet to meet her in person.
LIKE SCHOOL: I love learning anything new, but I wasn't so fond of school.
QUESTION YOURSELF: No more than any one else. Probably less than many people.
HAVE A LAVA LAMP: Nope.
__________________________________________________________________
WHO:
WAS THE LAST PERSON THAT CALLED YOU: Jason
MAKES YOU SMILE THE MOST: My cat. These people also make me smile a lot - Bev, Tiff, Jason, Irene, Leni & Trevor.
KNOWS YOU THE BEST: Tiff, Patience, Bev and Kyle
WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO SAW/HEARD YOU CRY: It's been a while since any one has seen me cry. Kyle probably, or maybe Bev.
WAS THE LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY: Kyle, and some one who I mistakenly thought was a better friend than she was.
__________________________________________________________________
FINAL QUESTIONS:
WHAT DID YOU DO YESTERDAY: Went to work, went to the gym, goofed off on line for a bit.
WHAT CAR/TRUCK DO YOU WISH TO HAVE: Well, I wouldn't kick a BMW 507 out of my driveway! Look at the lines on that thing! It's one sexy car.
HOW MANY REMOTE CONTROLS ARE IN YOUR HOUSE: Too many
ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED: Yes I am. *grins*
How will you die?
Aeryn: At age 76 you will spontaneously combust while dining out with your family.
How Will You Die?
Well, it is a great way to go! Or at least , there are a lot worse ways!
How Will You Die?
Well, it is a great way to go! Or at least , there are a lot worse ways!
Monday, November 27, 2006
The laundry room!
Okay, for those of you who have expressed concern, or mere curiosity over my current living arrangement, here is my bedroom/ the laundry room. As you can see, it's really not so bad, is it? I realized how frightfully bear the walls are after taking these. I'm in the process of fixing that now. *smiles* We'll go around the room clockwise, from the door leading into the kitchen.
This is what you see as you first walk into my room. Yup, it's my bed!
Moving right along, this is the foot of my bed! (Pretty exciting stuff, huh?) And the door leading outside.
Next we have my desk, and my window. There's not much to see out there. And even if there was, Mike's Charger is usually in the way. *laugh*
What does the top of my desk look like you ask? Well, that's an easy question to answer.
And yes, the drawers are just as clean as the top is!
And here are the infamous washer & drier. Oh, the horror! (And also, most of my clothes!)
Now we're around to the area more or less behind the kitchen door. Here's my dresser-
Here's a better look at the top of it! And those aren't toys, they're collectible figurines, dammit! *laughs*
Here's the bit I know that you've all been waiting for- my primary bookcase! (I have two more tall ones, but they're in the living room.)
And because I know you want to know what's on my bookcase, here are some better shots of it.
Top shelf-
And bottom shelf-
That's it on your tour of my room. I hope that you enjoyed it, and now feel more assured that isn't nearly the dank hovel that some of you had apparently been imagining it was!
This is what you see as you first walk into my room. Yup, it's my bed!
Moving right along, this is the foot of my bed! (Pretty exciting stuff, huh?) And the door leading outside.
Next we have my desk, and my window. There's not much to see out there. And even if there was, Mike's Charger is usually in the way. *laugh*
What does the top of my desk look like you ask? Well, that's an easy question to answer.
And yes, the drawers are just as clean as the top is!
And here are the infamous washer & drier. Oh, the horror! (And also, most of my clothes!)
Now we're around to the area more or less behind the kitchen door. Here's my dresser-
Here's a better look at the top of it! And those aren't toys, they're collectible figurines, dammit! *laughs*
Here's the bit I know that you've all been waiting for- my primary bookcase! (I have two more tall ones, but they're in the living room.)
And because I know you want to know what's on my bookcase, here are some better shots of it.
Top shelf-
And bottom shelf-
That's it on your tour of my room. I hope that you enjoyed it, and now feel more assured that isn't nearly the dank hovel that some of you had apparently been imagining it was!
The Haiku Quiz!
info about me
in seventeen syllables
one more questionnaire
What is your name?
a little piece of
personal information
I don't want to share
Do you have any piercings?
I'm pierced with metal
the flesh of navel and ears
I have pretty holes
Do you have any tattoos?
now there is but one
One day I will have much more
decorated skin
What kind of car do you drive?
Everywhere I go
I walk or I take the bus
I don't want a car
Do you have any brothers or sisters?
I have no siblings
I grew up an only child
I like to be alone
What is the last song you have listened to?
'Non-Stop Violence'
Apoptygma Bezerk
Euro-Pop is fun
Who is the last person you called?
Bev is most recent
on my phone's 'dialed calls' list
she is a great friend
Do you wish you were somewhere else? If so, where?
Moscow would be nice
Seattle would be great or
Burlington Vermont
Do others find you attractive?
I have no idea
what other people may think
you'd have to ask them
Do you like to clean?
does anyone really?
of course I don't like to clean
but it must be done
Do you like roller coasters?
I love to ride them
Or anything that goes fast
rides are hella fun
How many scars do you have and where did you get them?
road rash on elbow
horse bite on my upper arm
not too many scars
Pessimistic or Optimistic?
I am cynical
but also optimistic
maybe bi-polar?
What is your story behind your user name?
It's 'Daughter of fire'
from a language not my own
my name is Gaelic
What kind of jewelry do you wear?
today I have on
a hand made beaded necklace
black with pretty stars
What are you wearing right now?
jeans and a t-shirt
a hoodie and my sneakers
it is a work day
What are you looking forward to this month?
December to come
I'm going home for Christmas
I can not wait
Do you believe in love?
I believe in love
though nothing is eternal
it is still worthwhile
Can you eat with chopsticks?
since I was a child
I'll use them for any meal
often when I am alone
Eye color?
most of the time blue
sometimes they change their color
to green or to gray
Been in a car accident?
a fiery death
should have been mine years ago
during an ice storm
Have you ever been out of your country?
Canada only
But to Moscow and London
I will go one day
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Boarders most likely
I would buy hundreds of books
and be filled with joy
Your birthday?
Before the sun rose
On the 12th of December
is when I was born
in seventeen syllables
one more questionnaire
What is your name?
a little piece of
personal information
I don't want to share
Do you have any piercings?
I'm pierced with metal
the flesh of navel and ears
I have pretty holes
Do you have any tattoos?
now there is but one
One day I will have much more
decorated skin
What kind of car do you drive?
Everywhere I go
I walk or I take the bus
I don't want a car
Do you have any brothers or sisters?
I have no siblings
I grew up an only child
I like to be alone
What is the last song you have listened to?
'Non-Stop Violence'
Apoptygma Bezerk
Euro-Pop is fun
Who is the last person you called?
Bev is most recent
on my phone's 'dialed calls' list
she is a great friend
Do you wish you were somewhere else? If so, where?
Moscow would be nice
Seattle would be great or
Burlington Vermont
Do others find you attractive?
I have no idea
what other people may think
you'd have to ask them
Do you like to clean?
does anyone really?
of course I don't like to clean
but it must be done
Do you like roller coasters?
I love to ride them
Or anything that goes fast
rides are hella fun
How many scars do you have and where did you get them?
road rash on elbow
horse bite on my upper arm
not too many scars
Pessimistic or Optimistic?
I am cynical
but also optimistic
maybe bi-polar?
What is your story behind your user name?
It's 'Daughter of fire'
from a language not my own
my name is Gaelic
What kind of jewelry do you wear?
today I have on
a hand made beaded necklace
black with pretty stars
What are you wearing right now?
jeans and a t-shirt
a hoodie and my sneakers
it is a work day
What are you looking forward to this month?
December to come
I'm going home for Christmas
I can not wait
Do you believe in love?
I believe in love
though nothing is eternal
it is still worthwhile
Can you eat with chopsticks?
since I was a child
I'll use them for any meal
often when I am alone
Eye color?
most of the time blue
sometimes they change their color
to green or to gray
Been in a car accident?
a fiery death
should have been mine years ago
during an ice storm
Have you ever been out of your country?
Canada only
But to Moscow and London
I will go one day
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Boarders most likely
I would buy hundreds of books
and be filled with joy
Your birthday?
Before the sun rose
On the 12th of December
is when I was born
Friday, November 24, 2006
Serial killers, software, idiots & magical math!
Programming Language Inventor or Serial Killer? Do you think that you can tell them apart? (I got 7 out of 10.)
The Idiot Test This was fun. But then again, I find science talk sexy. And it told me that I may consider myself brilliant. *smile*
The Russian Magic Square This is a cool little 'mind reading' math puzzle. It's rather brilliant in it's simplicity. It actually took me a couple of minutes to figure it out myself.
The Idiot Test This was fun. But then again, I find science talk sexy. And it told me that I may consider myself brilliant. *smile*
The Russian Magic Square This is a cool little 'mind reading' math puzzle. It's rather brilliant in it's simplicity. It actually took me a couple of minutes to figure it out myself.
BEST, WORST, LAST, FIRST, TODAY, TOMORROW, FAVORITES, CURRENTLY, AND TRUE & FALSE.
BEST
1. MALE FRIEND: Well, honestly, I'm not too sure about this one right now. It used to be Kyle, but given the recent changes in my life, there are of course a lot of things I can't talk to him about anymore. So probably Mike, or Jason.
2. FEMALE FRIEND: Bev
3. VACATION: Vermont - June 2006
4. MEMORY: I have so many that are great, I don't think that I could pick one single memory out as my favorite.
WORST
1. TIME OF DAY: morning
2. DAY OF THE WEEK: Monday
3. FOOD: Lima beans
4. MEMORY: none of your business
LAST
1. PERSON YOU SAW: Bev
2. TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Jason
3. TEXT: Jason
4. MESSAGED OVER MYSPACE: Irene
TODAY
1. WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW: Filling out this dumb survey, and goofing off in general.
2. WEARING: Jeans, sneakers, and a blue sweater.
3. BETTER THAN YESTERDAY: Yesterday was better, but since it was Thanksgiving I think that's justified.
1. IS: was a pretty good day
2. GOT ANY PLANS: Collecting Trevor's luggage for him, talking to Jason later.
3. DISLIKES ABOUT TOMORROW: Saturday's do not last any longer than weekdays.
FAVORITE
1. NUMBER: I don't have one, but I am rather fond of multiples of three.
2. SONG: There are a lot of them
3. COLOR: purple, blue, black, gray, silver
4. SEASON: Autumn
CURRENTLY
1. MISSING SOMEONE: yup
2. MOOD: pretty good
3. WANTING: to be in Vermont
TRUE OR FALSE:
I AM A CUDDLER: true
I AM A MORNING PERSON: false, very, very false
I AM AN ONLY CHILD: true
I AM CURRENTLY IN MY PJ'S: true
I AM ADDICTED TO MYSPACE: false
I AM ONLINE 24/7: false
I AM VERY SHY AROUND THE OPPOSITE GENDER: false
I CAN BE PARANOID AT TIMES: true
I CURSE FREQUENTLY: false
I CURSE WHEN I'M MAD: true
I LOVE SMOOTHIES: true
I ENJOY TALKING ON THE PHONE: mostly false, but true for a few certain people
I HAVE A HIDDEN TALENT: true
I HAVE A TENDENCY TO FALL FOR THE "WRONG" GIRL/GUY: false
I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I HAVE AN UNUSUAL SENSE OF HUMOR: true
I HAVE CHANGED A DIAPER: true
I HAVE CHANGED A LOT OVER THE PAST YEAR: true
I HAVE HAD MAJOR/MINOR SURGERY: true (wisdom teeth)
I HAVE HAD MY HAIR CUT WITHIN THE LAST 2 MONTHS: true
I HAVE HAD THE COPS CALLED ON ME: false
1. MALE FRIEND: Well, honestly, I'm not too sure about this one right now. It used to be Kyle, but given the recent changes in my life, there are of course a lot of things I can't talk to him about anymore. So probably Mike, or Jason.
2. FEMALE FRIEND: Bev
3. VACATION: Vermont - June 2006
4. MEMORY: I have so many that are great, I don't think that I could pick one single memory out as my favorite.
WORST
1. TIME OF DAY: morning
2. DAY OF THE WEEK: Monday
3. FOOD: Lima beans
4. MEMORY: none of your business
LAST
1. PERSON YOU SAW: Bev
2. TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Jason
3. TEXT: Jason
4. MESSAGED OVER MYSPACE: Irene
TODAY
1. WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW: Filling out this dumb survey, and goofing off in general.
2. WEARING: Jeans, sneakers, and a blue sweater.
3. BETTER THAN YESTERDAY: Yesterday was better, but since it was Thanksgiving I think that's justified.
1. IS: was a pretty good day
2. GOT ANY PLANS: Collecting Trevor's luggage for him, talking to Jason later.
3. DISLIKES ABOUT TOMORROW: Saturday's do not last any longer than weekdays.
FAVORITE
1. NUMBER: I don't have one, but I am rather fond of multiples of three.
2. SONG: There are a lot of them
3. COLOR: purple, blue, black, gray, silver
4. SEASON: Autumn
CURRENTLY
1. MISSING SOMEONE: yup
2. MOOD: pretty good
3. WANTING: to be in Vermont
TRUE OR FALSE:
I AM A CUDDLER: true
I AM A MORNING PERSON: false, very, very false
I AM AN ONLY CHILD: true
I AM CURRENTLY IN MY PJ'S: true
I AM ADDICTED TO MYSPACE: false
I AM ONLINE 24/7: false
I AM VERY SHY AROUND THE OPPOSITE GENDER: false
I CAN BE PARANOID AT TIMES: true
I CURSE FREQUENTLY: false
I CURSE WHEN I'M MAD: true
I LOVE SMOOTHIES: true
I ENJOY TALKING ON THE PHONE: mostly false, but true for a few certain people
I HAVE A HIDDEN TALENT: true
I HAVE A TENDENCY TO FALL FOR THE "WRONG" GIRL/GUY: false
I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT I HAVE AN UNUSUAL SENSE OF HUMOR: true
I HAVE CHANGED A DIAPER: true
I HAVE CHANGED A LOT OVER THE PAST YEAR: true
I HAVE HAD MAJOR/MINOR SURGERY: true (wisdom teeth)
I HAVE HAD MY HAIR CUT WITHIN THE LAST 2 MONTHS: true
I HAVE HAD THE COPS CALLED ON ME: false
Only on Thanksgiving!
Things you can only say at Thanksgiving and get away with it!!
1. Talk about a huge breast!
2. Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist.
3. It's Cool Whip time!
4. If I don't undo my pants, I'll burst!
5. Whew, that's one terrific spread!
6. I'm in the mood for a little dark meat.
7. Are you ready for seconds yet?
8. It's a little dry, do you still want to eat it?
9. Just wait your turn, you'll get some!
10. Don't play with your meat.
11.. Just spread the legs open and stuff it in.
12. Do you think you'll be able to handle all these people at once?
13. I didn't expect everyone to come at once!
14. You still have a little bit on your chin.
15. How long will it take after you stick it in?
16. You'll know it's ready when it pops up.
17. Wow, I didn't think I could handle all of that!
18. That's the biggest one I've ever seen!
19. How long do I beat it before it's ready?
HAPPY THANKSGIVING !!!!
1. Talk about a huge breast!
2. Tying the legs together keeps the inside moist.
3. It's Cool Whip time!
4. If I don't undo my pants, I'll burst!
5. Whew, that's one terrific spread!
6. I'm in the mood for a little dark meat.
7. Are you ready for seconds yet?
8. It's a little dry, do you still want to eat it?
9. Just wait your turn, you'll get some!
10. Don't play with your meat.
11.. Just spread the legs open and stuff it in.
12. Do you think you'll be able to handle all these people at once?
13. I didn't expect everyone to come at once!
14. You still have a little bit on your chin.
15. How long will it take after you stick it in?
16. You'll know it's ready when it pops up.
17. Wow, I didn't think I could handle all of that!
18. That's the biggest one I've ever seen!
19. How long do I beat it before it's ready?
HAPPY THANKSGIVING !!!!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Top Ten Things I'm Thankful for This Year
1. All of the insight I've gained this year. It hasn't been an easy year, this is true. I wouldn't trade any of it if I could though. The lessons learned have been worth the pain & difficulty. After all, nothing worth having ever comes easy.
2. Bev and Patience. I'm so thankful for your unending & unfailing love and support this year. For the late night phone calls & chats, listening when I needed to talk, and giving me shoulder when I needed to cry or just a hug, for all of the insight and advice, for telling me what I needed to hear, not what I wanted to hear, and for the offers to sleep on their couches. You were there for me every time I needed you, not matter what. I don't think I would have made it through this year sane with out you two. Thanks!
3. My friends. You are are wonderful, & I love you! Almost all of you have heard some of the craziness that has been my life this year, and never told me to shut up. Instead you took me out for a beer, or ice cream, or a walk in the park, giving me the chance to restore my batteries, and catch up on what was going on in your lives.
4. Having an excellent primary doctor, and neurologist. And for the medication they prescribe. With out it I'd be like this all the time-
It's nice to be able to stay awake all day!
5. Meeting new friends. Specifically one person I recently met who I like, a lot. In more than just a friendly way in fact. I have renewed hope in the future, and the male gender! I'm looking forward to getting to see him, in less than a month.
6. That it's almost 2007! I'm more than ready for 2006 to be over. I may be thankful for all I've learned, but I'm ready to have some time with out growth! I think that 2007 is going to be an excellent year!
7. My sweet little beastie, Kai.
She has brought me an endless supply of amusement and comfort. It's easy to be happy when you have a cat in your house.
8. Kyle. This year hasn't been any easier for him, but we've both come through it as better, stronger people. He's been a stabilizing and grounding force in my life for many years, and even through out the break up. I'm thankful that we are still friends, and that he agreed that it was for the best for both of us to end our relationship. I'm also thankful that he's not pushing me to move out quickly, since I don't really have any place to go.
9. Irene. I can feel her presence, and love even though she is far from me. Her friendship was the catalyst that helped me unlock a part of my past I'd thought buried, and to be able to let it go. She has been not just my dear friend, but muse, inspiration, beloved & a glimpse of the Divine. I'm thankful that she is in my life.
10. And of course, I'm thankful that have a roof over my head, food in my belly, and a job. I'm thankful that I live in a country where I have the right to express my opinion, and to live my life as I choose. I'm thankful that I have an education, and unrestricted access to media of all kinds. I'm thankful that I don't have to stay in a gender role that I would hate. I'm thankful that I get to vote, and and play an active part in my government. I'm thankful that I live in a country with peace with in it's borders. I'm thankful that I have limitless possibilities for my life.
PS- One more thing I'm thankful for today- That I get to go home for Christmas! I'm so very excited. :)
2. Bev and Patience. I'm so thankful for your unending & unfailing love and support this year. For the late night phone calls & chats, listening when I needed to talk, and giving me shoulder when I needed to cry or just a hug, for all of the insight and advice, for telling me what I needed to hear, not what I wanted to hear, and for the offers to sleep on their couches. You were there for me every time I needed you, not matter what. I don't think I would have made it through this year sane with out you two. Thanks!
3. My friends. You are are wonderful, & I love you! Almost all of you have heard some of the craziness that has been my life this year, and never told me to shut up. Instead you took me out for a beer, or ice cream, or a walk in the park, giving me the chance to restore my batteries, and catch up on what was going on in your lives.
4. Having an excellent primary doctor, and neurologist. And for the medication they prescribe. With out it I'd be like this all the time-
It's nice to be able to stay awake all day!
5. Meeting new friends. Specifically one person I recently met who I like, a lot. In more than just a friendly way in fact. I have renewed hope in the future, and the male gender! I'm looking forward to getting to see him, in less than a month.
6. That it's almost 2007! I'm more than ready for 2006 to be over. I may be thankful for all I've learned, but I'm ready to have some time with out growth! I think that 2007 is going to be an excellent year!
7. My sweet little beastie, Kai.
She has brought me an endless supply of amusement and comfort. It's easy to be happy when you have a cat in your house.
8. Kyle. This year hasn't been any easier for him, but we've both come through it as better, stronger people. He's been a stabilizing and grounding force in my life for many years, and even through out the break up. I'm thankful that we are still friends, and that he agreed that it was for the best for both of us to end our relationship. I'm also thankful that he's not pushing me to move out quickly, since I don't really have any place to go.
9. Irene. I can feel her presence, and love even though she is far from me. Her friendship was the catalyst that helped me unlock a part of my past I'd thought buried, and to be able to let it go. She has been not just my dear friend, but muse, inspiration, beloved & a glimpse of the Divine. I'm thankful that she is in my life.
10. And of course, I'm thankful that have a roof over my head, food in my belly, and a job. I'm thankful that I live in a country where I have the right to express my opinion, and to live my life as I choose. I'm thankful that I have an education, and unrestricted access to media of all kinds. I'm thankful that I don't have to stay in a gender role that I would hate. I'm thankful that I get to vote, and and play an active part in my government. I'm thankful that I live in a country with peace with in it's borders. I'm thankful that I have limitless possibilities for my life.
PS- One more thing I'm thankful for today- That I get to go home for Christmas! I'm so very excited. :)
Happy Thanksgiving!
Wishing you all a very happy Thanksgiving. In between stuffing your faces & falling asleep on the couch, don't forget to pause for a minute and think about the things that you have to be thankful for! (Like being able to sit in your nice comfy home on the computer!)
For those of you who are stuck with family obligations you don't want today-
I'll be thinking of you while I hang out with friends and play Mario Cart!
For those of you who are stuck with family obligations you don't want today-
I'll be thinking of you while I hang out with friends and play Mario Cart!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
I am so fucking excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The Cure is coming to the US!!!!!!!! *jumps up & down & squeals with glee* I am so fucking excited right now. Only one confirmed date so far, but more to dates in US are to follow!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyone want to go to the Ultra Music Festival with me? March 24th, in Miami Florida. I'm kind of serious about this. It's worth eating ramen for 3 months to go to. After all, it's Robert Fucking Smith!!!!!
The Cure
The Cure - myspace page
Ultra Music Festival
Ultra Music Festival - myspace Page
The Cure
The Cure - myspace page
Ultra Music Festival
Ultra Music Festival - myspace Page
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Nine People
Name 9 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 9 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.. No cheating!!!
1. Bev
2. Kyle
3. Irene
4. Patience
5. Tiff
6. Leni
7. Mike
8. Trevor
9. Colleen
DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED OUT THE TOP!
How did you meet 3?
Kyle introduced us.
What would you do if you had never met 1?
What would I do? Probably nothing, since I wouldn't know what a great friendship I was missing out on! Now, if you asked what I'd be doing now if I hadn't met number 1 I'd have a different answer for you. If I hadn't met her, I'd probably be some nice quiet place where I could 'get some rest' by now!
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
Well, that would just be really, really bizarre. I would be okay with it, cause I'm pretty sure that the world would be ending!
How do you know 8?
I met him through a mutual friend when he moved out to Minneapolis. He's dating one of my very best friends. He rocks!
What do you think about 7?
He's a great guy. Very sweet, and intelligent. I'm glad to have him as one of my friends.He's kind of like the big brother I always wanted.
A fact about 9?
She make the best meat & cheese dip ever! I always have a lot of fun when I'm with her. Okay, so that's two facts. :P
What would you do if 5 confessed they loved you?
I would be scared. And confused. And wonder why when I half-assedly tried to kiss her once when we were drunk in 11th grade she told me to shut up & go to sleep!
Who is 4 going out with?
Jason. A wonderful man she's going to be marrying in June. :)
Has 2 ever been to your house?
Um, I should hope so. We've lived together for the past 5 years!
Would you ever live with 8?
Nah. He's a great guy, but I think that would just be way to weird!
What do you like best about 3?
That she is so sweet, and intelligent, and funny. That she loves me exactly as I am.
Is 2 your best friend?
He's one of my best friends.
Do you miss number 6?
Nah, she's only about 150 feet away from me!
1. Bev
2. Kyle
3. Irene
4. Patience
5. Tiff
6. Leni
7. Mike
8. Trevor
9. Colleen
DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED OUT THE TOP!
How did you meet 3?
Kyle introduced us.
What would you do if you had never met 1?
What would I do? Probably nothing, since I wouldn't know what a great friendship I was missing out on! Now, if you asked what I'd be doing now if I hadn't met number 1 I'd have a different answer for you. If I hadn't met her, I'd probably be some nice quiet place where I could 'get some rest' by now!
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
Well, that would just be really, really bizarre. I would be okay with it, cause I'm pretty sure that the world would be ending!
How do you know 8?
I met him through a mutual friend when he moved out to Minneapolis. He's dating one of my very best friends. He rocks!
What do you think about 7?
He's a great guy. Very sweet, and intelligent. I'm glad to have him as one of my friends.He's kind of like the big brother I always wanted.
A fact about 9?
She make the best meat & cheese dip ever! I always have a lot of fun when I'm with her. Okay, so that's two facts. :P
What would you do if 5 confessed they loved you?
I would be scared. And confused. And wonder why when I half-assedly tried to kiss her once when we were drunk in 11th grade she told me to shut up & go to sleep!
Who is 4 going out with?
Jason. A wonderful man she's going to be marrying in June. :)
Has 2 ever been to your house?
Um, I should hope so. We've lived together for the past 5 years!
Would you ever live with 8?
Nah. He's a great guy, but I think that would just be way to weird!
What do you like best about 3?
That she is so sweet, and intelligent, and funny. That she loves me exactly as I am.
Is 2 your best friend?
He's one of my best friends.
Do you miss number 6?
Nah, she's only about 150 feet away from me!
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Voting is cool!
I hope that all of you reading this who are are in the US are going to take the time to vote today! Voting is a privilege that we are lucky to have. I strongly believe that if we want to keep this privilege we need to treat it is a responsibility. So get your asses to your local polling places folks!
I know I've heard almost all of you (rightly) state that there needs to be a change in our government. Now's the time to make that happen. For those of you in Minneapolis you can register to vote at the polls if you haven't already. You really have no excuse except laziness. Here's the Star Trib's candidate Overviews for you even.
Remember, voting isn't just about the President, Governors and national representatives. It's also about judges, sheriffs, schools, public transportation and local government. Things that really do have an impact on your every day life!
Don't be one of the sheeple folks! Get out there and vote. Surely you don't have anything so important to do on a Tuesday evening that you can't spare a half an hour on your way home from work?
Things Republicans want you to forget.
Can you name all the Republicans who have been convicted or are currently under criminal investigation in a single breath?
Vote . Fulfill your responsibility to yourself, your community, and your country.
I know I've heard almost all of you (rightly) state that there needs to be a change in our government. Now's the time to make that happen. For those of you in Minneapolis you can register to vote at the polls if you haven't already. You really have no excuse except laziness. Here's the Star Trib's candidate Overviews for you even.
Remember, voting isn't just about the President, Governors and national representatives. It's also about judges, sheriffs, schools, public transportation and local government. Things that really do have an impact on your every day life!
Don't be one of the sheeple folks! Get out there and vote. Surely you don't have anything so important to do on a Tuesday evening that you can't spare a half an hour on your way home from work?
Things Republicans want you to forget.
Can you name all the Republicans who have been convicted or are currently under criminal investigation in a single breath?
Vote . Fulfill your responsibility to yourself, your community, and your country.
Which Nature Image Are You?
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
Um, yeah, sure, what ever
So, it's 1 in the morning, I've been drinking, wait, no, I'm drunk, I may as well admit it. Okay, so It;s 1 in the morning I'm drunk and I'm blogging. I'm pretty damn sure that this is not a good sign. Oh yeah, did I mention that I'm listening to Joy Division? So it's 1 am I'm drunk, blogging and listening to Joy Division. You can judge for yourself how this is gonna go. Oh, now I'm listening to Tori Amos. (As if that is so much better!) Oh wait, now it's Imogen Heap! (Yeah, still not much better!)
Yeah, so I'm a bit drunk, sitting here blogging, thinking about life. I'm talking to my ex-husband through myspace email as I type. (I bet that is a suprise to some of you isn't it? That I was marrried once. For now all I will say is that I was too young to know what I wanted. Maybe someday I will tell the whole story. You'll have to ask first. It's not a part of my life that I'll willingly divulge. However, it is part of my past, and part of what has made me the person I am today). Although I wish that things had turned out differently I still am thankfull for the lessons learned.
You know I have to break from my current train of though to say a big F you to those who I thought were my true friends. Those whoI thought would be there for me. Now, I know that they are both going though thier own troubles. I really do. However, you would think that for all the love I have shown them, for all the selfless and even self-sacrificing actions, they would be there for me when I needed them. One I have not heard from since I told her the news. The other is too wrapped in her own life to notice my need of her. It's kind of funny, I will probably forgive the first one before the second. Even though the second had better reasons. I guess it is because the first has such a tie around my heart.
Oh hell, I'll admit it. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what the hell is going on, what life is all about. I suppose that we each do the best with the knowlage we are given. I almost think (and fear) that my lesson for this life time is not just to love. That my lesson is humility.
So, um, yeah, it's a bit later. (3:30 in the morning) I've spent almost an hour and a half talking to John. It was good. It was cleansing to my soul. I feel a bit of closer now. I know that it won't be that last conversation that we have. I can't help but think that this is a good thing. I feel like I've grown a lot in this past year. I understand so much more than I used to. I have a greater capacity for love, for compassion and empathy. I feel a lot more at peace than I did yesterday. I feel like I have a greater understanding of, well, of something. Of something huge, and important. Something that is right around the corner. I'm actually looking forward to it. I'm not as scared of the learning process as I was. This makes me very happy. It's not in my nature to be scared of anything. It's especially not in my nature to be scared of knowladge. I am looking forward to the changes ahead, and even the challanges. Even if they are hard, I know that I will be a better person because of them. I actually am looking forward to the challanges ahead of me! I am finally ready to face my future. I will do it with hope. With hope, and joy, and optimism. I know it will be hard. I also know that it will be worth it.
Yeah, so I'm a bit drunk, sitting here blogging, thinking about life. I'm talking to my ex-husband through myspace email as I type. (I bet that is a suprise to some of you isn't it? That I was marrried once. For now all I will say is that I was too young to know what I wanted. Maybe someday I will tell the whole story. You'll have to ask first. It's not a part of my life that I'll willingly divulge. However, it is part of my past, and part of what has made me the person I am today). Although I wish that things had turned out differently I still am thankfull for the lessons learned.
You know I have to break from my current train of though to say a big F you to those who I thought were my true friends. Those whoI thought would be there for me. Now, I know that they are both going though thier own troubles. I really do. However, you would think that for all the love I have shown them, for all the selfless and even self-sacrificing actions, they would be there for me when I needed them. One I have not heard from since I told her the news. The other is too wrapped in her own life to notice my need of her. It's kind of funny, I will probably forgive the first one before the second. Even though the second had better reasons. I guess it is because the first has such a tie around my heart.
Oh hell, I'll admit it. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what the hell is going on, what life is all about. I suppose that we each do the best with the knowlage we are given. I almost think (and fear) that my lesson for this life time is not just to love. That my lesson is humility.
So, um, yeah, it's a bit later. (3:30 in the morning) I've spent almost an hour and a half talking to John. It was good. It was cleansing to my soul. I feel a bit of closer now. I know that it won't be that last conversation that we have. I can't help but think that this is a good thing. I feel like I've grown a lot in this past year. I understand so much more than I used to. I have a greater capacity for love, for compassion and empathy. I feel a lot more at peace than I did yesterday. I feel like I have a greater understanding of, well, of something. Of something huge, and important. Something that is right around the corner. I'm actually looking forward to it. I'm not as scared of the learning process as I was. This makes me very happy. It's not in my nature to be scared of anything. It's especially not in my nature to be scared of knowladge. I am looking forward to the changes ahead, and even the challanges. Even if they are hard, I know that I will be a better person because of them. I actually am looking forward to the challanges ahead of me! I am finally ready to face my future. I will do it with hope. With hope, and joy, and optimism. I know it will be hard. I also know that it will be worth it.
Friday, November 03, 2006
A couple of movies, and a silly celebrity website! (Fri Gaming & entertainment post)
Has anyone else heard about the movie Tideland? It looks bizarre and intriguing.
Plot summary- "Jeliza-Rose is a young girl in a very unusual situation both of her parents are junkies and she is usually left to her own devices for entertainment. When her mother dies, her father takes her to a remote farm in the country, she escapes the vast loneliness of her new home by retreating into a world that exists only in her mind. Here, fireflies have names, bog-men awaken at dusk, and squirrels talk. And the heads of her four dolls Mystique, Baby Blonde, Glitter Gal, and Sateen Lips long since separated from their bodies, keep her company."
I think that I may go see it. I'm not quite sure that I'm going to to think its a good movie. It's so damn bizarre that it makes me want to see it though. It starts today at the Lagoon. Does any one want to go see it with me?
Another bizarre looking movie I found out about this week is We Are The Strange. (Thanks Trevor!) I am very intrigued by this one, and will definitely go see it once it is finished. It's a one man project, done in 'Str8nime.' I bet that if you didn't already know about this film, by now you're wondering what it's about, and what the hell str8nime is, aren't you? I could try to explain it, but it's really one of those things you have to see for yourself. So go ahead and click of one of those handy links I've put in for you, and check it out!
And the last thing for today, a celebrity blog I even enjoy! The Superficial knows as well as you & I do that the only thing most popular celebrities are good for is making fun of! That's all that they do, and they do it reasonably well even! It's great for days when you're feeling catty and snarky and really just want to laugh at some one. It's also great for bad days too! It reminds you that it could be worse, you could be Paris Hilton!
Plot summary- "Jeliza-Rose is a young girl in a very unusual situation both of her parents are junkies and she is usually left to her own devices for entertainment. When her mother dies, her father takes her to a remote farm in the country, she escapes the vast loneliness of her new home by retreating into a world that exists only in her mind. Here, fireflies have names, bog-men awaken at dusk, and squirrels talk. And the heads of her four dolls Mystique, Baby Blonde, Glitter Gal, and Sateen Lips long since separated from their bodies, keep her company."
I think that I may go see it. I'm not quite sure that I'm going to to think its a good movie. It's so damn bizarre that it makes me want to see it though. It starts today at the Lagoon. Does any one want to go see it with me?
Another bizarre looking movie I found out about this week is We Are The Strange. (Thanks Trevor!) I am very intrigued by this one, and will definitely go see it once it is finished. It's a one man project, done in 'Str8nime.' I bet that if you didn't already know about this film, by now you're wondering what it's about, and what the hell str8nime is, aren't you? I could try to explain it, but it's really one of those things you have to see for yourself. So go ahead and click of one of those handy links I've put in for you, and check it out!
And the last thing for today, a celebrity blog I even enjoy! The Superficial knows as well as you & I do that the only thing most popular celebrities are good for is making fun of! That's all that they do, and they do it reasonably well even! It's great for days when you're feeling catty and snarky and really just want to laugh at some one. It's also great for bad days too! It reminds you that it could be worse, you could be Paris Hilton!
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