Give 100%

Mathematics....From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this:

What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder
about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all
been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How
about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these
questions:


If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z


is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

and

K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,

B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far ass kissing will take you.

A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that, while Hard work
and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's
the Bullshit and Ass kissing that will put you over the top.

Don't you just Love it!!!

How Quirky Are You?

Your Quirk Factor: 59%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it. Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

How Quirky Are You?

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

You are a Self-Discoverer

You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality. Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine. You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion. You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

You Are 0% Extrovert, 100% Introvert

You avoid people at all costs You aren't one for social interaction And you limit your interaction to a select few Thank God for self checkout!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Yeah, as if I need a quiz to tell me this!

What Mythological Creature Are You?

You Are a Pegasus

You are a perfectionist, with an eye for beauty. You know how to live a good life - and you rarely deviate from your good taste. While you aren't outgoing, you have excellent social skills. People both admire you - and feel very comfortable around you.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

New Stuff!

I decided that I don't want to end up posting a large number of entries all at once like I was on myspace. Instead I'm going to try posting any articles I find grouped together by topic, on different days of the week.

Here is the tentative schedule:
(Which is of course subject to change at any random time!)

Mon.- Fun, Odd, & Random

Tues.- Useful and Tech

Wed.- Science

Thurs.- Art

Fri.- Gaming & Entertainment

Sat.- Politics

Sun.- Psychology and Neuroscience


This is not ment to be a 'Week in Review' sort of things. It's just articles, websites, and stuff that I may come across that I find interesting enough to share. And of course, if I didn't find anything interesting that week, I won't post a blog about that topic.


Enjoy!

How's Your Attitude?

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

How's Your Attitude?

How's Your Inner Child?

Your Inner Child Is Surprised

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Me? Not cynical and jaded? *L* Yeah right. Although, I could justifiably be a lot more cynical and jaded. I guess that in comparatively, I'm not doing so bad!

Hello?

Is there anybody out there? Or am I on my own now that I've escaped the evil clutches of myspce?


(P.S. - You can leave a comment with out having a blogspot account.)

Broke & couchless? Build your own!

I thought this was amusing, and clever. It can't be all that comfortable though!

FedEx Box Furniture

There is a couch, table, desk, chairs, and even a bed!

Early Recorded Sounds

I thought this was pretty nifty. Early recording from 1888 and 1889.

Free Whoppers

I found this through Digg. Thought you all might like to know too.

All you have to do is get a reciept from a burger king that has a survey box on the back. Instead of calling the number and wasting your time just follow these instructions for free no hassle food.

Here are the instructions:

• Find a reciept with the telephone survey on the back.
• Where it says to write the code and place the two letter code followed by 5 numbers (hint: Numbers do not have to be in any order or value except that there has to be five of them) for which month you are currently in.
• Example: WH 12345 the only thing they will check are the two letters.
• You still have to buy any size fry or drink but you will always get a free sandwich of your choosing.

Month Codes:

Based on which month your are in choose the two letters that coincide with that month.

1. Jan = BB
2. Feb = LS
3. Mar = JH
4. April = PL
5. May = BK
6. June = WH
7. July = FF
8. Aug = BF
9. Sept = CF
10. Oct = CK
11. Nov = CB
12. Dec = VM

This is unvarified by myself so far, so I can make no promises to if it really works or not. So if some one tries it, I'd love to hear if it worked!

Here is the blogg it is originally posted to.

President Chavez calls Bush the Devil

This morning during the UN general Assembly Venezuelan President Hugo Chavez called President Bush the devil risking the survival of all humans. It's about time some one said it!

"The hegemonic pretensions of the American empire are placing at risk the very survival of the human species. We continue to warn you about this danger and we appeal to the people of the United States and the world to halt this threat, which is like a sword hanging over our heads.
...
And the devil came here yesterday. Yesterday the devil came here. Right here."

[crosses himself]

"And it smells of sulfur still today.
Yesterday, ladies and gentlemen, from this rostrum, the president of the United States, the gentleman to whom I refer as the devil, came here, talking as if he owned the world. Truly. As the owner of the world.
I think we could call a psychiatrist to analyze yesterday's statement made by the president of the United States. As the spokesman of imperialism, he came to share his nostrums, to try to preserve the current pattern of domination, exploitation and pillage of the peoples of the world.
...
They say they want to impose a democratic model. But that's their democratic model. It's the false democracy of elites, and, I would say, a very original democracy that's imposed by weapons and bombs and firing weapons.
What a strange democracy. Aristotle might not recognize it or others who are at the root of democracy.
What type of democracy do you impose with marines and bombs?
The president of the United States, yesterday, said to us, right here, in this room, and I'm quoting, "Anywhere you look, you hear extremists telling you can escape from poverty and recover your dignity through violence, terror and martyrdom.
Wherever he looks, he sees extremists.
...
The imperialists see extremists everywhere. It's not that we are extremists. It's that the world is waking up. It's waking up all over. And people are standing up.
I have the feeling, dear world dictator, that you are going to live the rest of your days as a nightmare because the rest of us are standing up, all those who are rising up against American imperialism, who are shouting for equality, for respect, for the sovereignty of nations."


Read the full transcript at Drudge Report. The transcript is not yet available on the UN's GA 61 site. However, you can watch the webcast in English or Spanish.

This is not the first time Chavez has spoken his mind about the current US administration. In this CCN article from May, 15 2006 he accused Bush of committing genocide and states that he should be tried in an international court and imprisoned. This is just one example of Chavez's very vocal opposition to Bush.

I find it interesting that the administration is dismissing Chavez out of hand.

John Bolton, the U.S. envoy to the United Nations: "We're not going to address that kind of comic strip approach to international affairs."

Condoleezza Rice, Secretary of State: "I am not going to dignify a comment by the Venezuelan president to the president of the United States. I think it is not becoming for a head of state."

Imagine, if you will that he is saying essentially the same thing, with the same passion, about fighting terrorism and defeating Al-Qaeda. I'm pretty sure that instead they'd be praising him up and down for his dedication to the cause of freedom and peace for all people. Or at least, President Bush's version of it.


As a couple of side notes:

Here is President Bush's speech to the UN from Tuesday.

Here is the UN GA 61 main page, for those of you who want to keep up with what is going on.

And a clip from The Dec 7, 2005 Colbert Report. The Word is Hell, yes!, and it talks a bit about Chavez discounting oil for poor American families.

Are you a true Vermonter?

If you are a TRUE VERMONTER:

1.Your idea of a traffic jam is ten cars waiting to pass a tractor on route 7.
2. Vacation means going to Burlington for the weekend.
3. You measure distance in hours.
4. You know several people who have hit moose more than once.
5. You often switch from heat to A/C in the same day.
6. You use a down comforter in the summer.
7. Your grandparents drive at 65 mph through 13 feet of snow during a raging blizzard, without flinching.
8. You see people wearing hunting clothes at social events.
9. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.
10. You think of the major food groups as deer meat, beer, fish, and berries.
11. You carry jumper cables in your car and your girlfriend knows how to use them.
12. There are 7 empty cars running in the parking lot at the K-mart store at any given time!
13. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit.
14. Driving is better in the winter because the potholes are filled with snow.
15. You think sexy lingerie is tube socks and flannel pajamas.
16. You know all 5 seasons: almost winter, winter, still winter, mud, and construction.
17. It takes you 3 hours to go to the store for one item even when you're in a rush because you have to stop and talk to everyone in town.
18. You actually understand these jokes and forward them to all your friends from Vermont
19. Your idea of a graduation party is a keg in the backwoods with some friends.
20. 10 degrees is considered a warm day.
21. The christmas lights are on the house year round.
22. You know the three ways of hunting deer: sitting in a tree stand (boring), stalking the deer (hard as hell), and hitting it with your truck (by far the easiest and most full proof way).
23. You know February vaction was first made for people who sugar.
24. You think the bigger the truck the better
25. You say idear and milt'n
26. You think a winter with only 2 feet of snow at a time is a mild winter.
27. You or your parents don't fully grasp the concept of internet.
28. You know you can buy a bong legally and you know where to get them.
29. You are used to the smell of cow manure.
30. You learned to drive when you could first reach the pedals.
31. You wait up all night just to shoot pesky racoons
32. You or your parents own more then 3 guns.
33. You have to travel for at least 30 minutes to get any good clothes.
34. You think camo clothes, suspenders and flannel are "in style".
35. You get annoyed when people think Vermont is part of Canada, but you yourself think New Mexico is part of Central America and its the updated version of Mexico.
36. You make some of your own furniture.
37. You've at least tipped one cow in your life.
38. You've skinny dipped at least once in lake champlain.
39. You get immense fun out of setting off any kind of firework.
40. You know the few roads into canada no-one appears to know about.
41. You drink water from your own well.
42. Within a mile of where you live you can find a cow.
43. Ain't is part of your common vocabulary.

Free Legel Advice From An Attorney

A corporate attorney sent the following out to the employees in his company.

1. The next time you order checks have only your initials (instead of first name) and last name put on them. If someone takes your checkbook, they will not know if you sign your checks with just your initials or your first name, but your bank will know how you sign your checks.

2. Do not sign the back of your credit cards. Instead, put "PHOTO ID REQUIRED."

3. When you are writing checks to pay on your credit card accounts, DO NOT put the complete account number on the "For" line. Instead, just put the last four numbers. The credit card company knows the rest of the number, and anyone who might be handling your check as it passes through all the check-processing channels will not have access to it.

4. Put your work phone # on your checks instead of your home phone. If you have a PO Box, use that instead of your home address. If you do not have a PO Box, use your work address. Never have your SS# printed on your checks. You can add it if it is necessary. However, if you have it printed, anyone can get it.

5. Place the contents of your wallet on a photocopy machine. Do both sides of each license, credit card, etc. You will know what you had in your wallet and all of the account numbers and phone numbers to call and cancel. Keep the photocopy in a safe place. Also carry a photocopy of your passport when traveling either here or abroad. We have all heard horror stories about fraud that is committed on us in stealing a name, address, Social Security number, credit cards.

6. When you check out of a hotel that uses cards for keys (and they all seem to do that now), do not turn the "keys" in. Take them with you and destroy them. Those little cards have on them all of the information you gave the hotel, including address and credit card numbers and expiration dates. Someone with a card reader, or employee of the hotel, can access all that information with no problem whatsoever.

Unfortunately, as an attorney, I have first hand knowledge because my wallet was stolen last month. Within a week, the thieve(s) ordered an expensive monthly cell phone package, applied for a VISA credit card, had a credit line approved to buy a Gateway computer and received a PIN number from DMV to change my driving record information online.
Here is some critical information to limit the damage in case this happens to you or someone you know:
1. We have been told we should cancel our credit cards immediately. The key is having the toll free numbers and your card numbers handy so you know whom to call. Keep those where you can find them.
2. File a police report immediately in the jurisdiction where your credit cards, etc., were stolen. This proves to credit providers you were diligent, and this is a first step toward an investigation (if there ever is one).
However, here is what is perhaps most important of all (I never even thought to do this.)
3. Call the three national credit reporting organizations immediately to place a fraud alert on your name and Social Security number. I had never heard of doing that until advised by a bank that called to tell me an application for credit was made over the Internet in my name. The alert means any company that checks your credit knows your information was stolen, and they have to contact you by phone to authorize new credit. By the time I was advised to do this, almost two weeks after the theft, all the damage had been done. There are records of all the credit checks initiated by the thieves' purchases, none of which I knew about before placing the alert Since then, no additional damage has been done, and the thieves threw my wallet away this weekend (someone turned it in). It seems to have stopped them dead in their tracks.
Now, here are the numbers you always need to contact about your wallet and contents being stolen:
1.) Equifax: 1-800-525-62852.)
2.)Experian (formerly TRW): 1-888-397-37423.)
3.)Trans Union: 1-800-680-7289
4.) Social Security Administration (fraud line): 1-800-269-0271

We pass along jokes on the Internet; we pass along just about everything. Nevertheless, if you are willing to pass this information along, it could really help someone you care.

Bananas

I'll bet that after reading THIS, you'll NEVER look at a banana in the same way again!

Bananas: Containing three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber, a banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy. Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression: According to a recent survey, undertaken by MIND, amongst people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

PMS: Forget the pills -- eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of hemoglobin in the blood and so helps in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it the perfect way to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke.

Brain Power: 200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn: Bananas have a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you suffer from heartburn, try eating a banana for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness: Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites: Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the inside of a banana skin. Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system.

Overweight and at work? Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at work leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

Temperature control: Many other cultures see bananas as a "cooling" fruit that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers. In Thailand, for example, pregnant women eat bananas to ensure their baby is born with a cool temperature.

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): Bananas can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural moodenhancer tryptophan.

Smoking: Bananas can also help people trying to give up smoking. The B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium banana snack.

Strokes: According to research in "The New England Journal of Medicine," eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%!

So, a banana really is a natural remedy for many ills. When you compare it to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrates, three times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the other vitamins and minerals. It is also rich in potassium and is one of the best value foods around. So maybe its time to change that well-known phrase so that we say, "A banana a day keeps the doctor away!"You might want to pass this tidbit to those friends you'd like to keep around!!!!You'll have to excuse me now.......I'm off to the store for my banana's.

Things I like today-

Sen. Ted Kennedy speaking out in support for Net Neutrality

These fun and humorous videos -

We all know what the internet is really for. Avenue Q made a song about it, and the nice monsters from World of Warcraft made a video for the song. Listen and be amused. The Internet Is For Porn

Everyone's favorite furniture store is of course The Presidents


These quotes -

"Be curious always, for knowledge will not acquire you; you must acquire it." --Sudie Back

"To be happy, you need something or someone to love, something to keep you busy and something to look forward to." Anon/ Modern proverb

"For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way. So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. Happiness is a journey, not a destination..." - Souza

"The things we know best are the things we haven't been taught." - Marquis de Vauvenargues

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around."- Leo Buscaglia

"Mindfulness is not just a word or a discourse by the Buddha, but a meaningful state of mind. It means we have to be here now, in this very moment, and we have to know what is happening internally and externally. It means being alert to our motives and learning to change unwholesome thoughts and emotions into wholesome ones. Mindfulness is a mental activity that in due course eliminates all suffering." - Ayya Khema, "Be an Island"

"Patriotism is the last refuge of a scoundrel." - Samuel Johnson

"The unexamined life is not worth living." - Socrates

"Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator, but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh." - WH Auden


Strawberry daiquiris (Yeah, I know. It suprised me too.)




Famous Dave's
They have really tasty BBQ.

Aeryn's list of open-source software that doesn't suck!

The first thing I would recommend is to do your downloading through C-NET. I haven't had any problems with viruses, spy-ware, or ad-ware with anything I've downloaded through them. Of course use common sense, don't download a stuff all willy-nilly , pay attention to the staff & customer reviews, etc. But you all know that already, I'm sure.

For those of you in Minneapolis I recommend switching to Earthlink if you are currently using Time Warner High Speed. Why? Well, if you have Time Warner, I'm sure you know that they suck! But even above that, the Earthlink anti-virus software that you get is pretty decent. (For the same price you're already paying.) Combined with a couple of other small changes that I'll tell you about in just a minute, I have been blissfully problem free since installing it. If you have an older computer, it may cause it to run a slow when doing a virus scan, or updating it. I haven't had any speed issues otherwise. (Steps down off of my soap box. Sorry about that.)

If you don't have an anti-virus program/ pop up blocker already, or if the one that you have just plan old doesn't work, I love the Google Toolbar. It can be kind of a pain in the ass, doing things like blocking new windows that you want, but you can set it to always allow pop ups from specific sites, or temporarily disable it it you would like to.

If you use any sort of instant messenger you'll like Trillian. If you use more than one IM service, you'll love Trillian. It opens AOL IM, Yahoo IM, MSN IM, and ICQ. With out having to download any of them. All you need is your log in email and password for each program. You can choose an avatar, and it has an extensive list of icons. You can also set it to/ start it in 'invisible' mode, so you can see who is online, but they can't see you.

If you are not using it now, I highly, highly recommend switching your web browser to Firefox. Since many viruses are written specifically for Internet Explorer, it's more secure than IE. It's also more handy, and fun. It uses a tabbed browsing system, so you can open more than one web page in the same window. You can download different skins for it, and a lot of different extentions. Some are handy, some are just fun. I can send out a list of my favorite extentions if any one is interested. Now that I'm used to it, I don't know how I ever lived with out it. There are some programs that won't open in Firefox though. (Like Window's Media player.) You will need to use IE on occasion still, but it's well worth the occasional inconvenience of having to switch browsers.

Another program that I love is Open Office. Like MS Office, but no irritating animated paperclip, and it's free. It has a word processing program, a spreadsheet program, a presentation program, and a couple of others that I haven't checked out yet. (Drawing and math I think.) I was using Word Perfect before I found Open Office, and the difference is astounding.

I love Google's Picassa for basic photo editing. Red Eye removal, light and color adjusting, it's pretty handy with all that basic stuff.

If you are looking for a slightly more advanced editing program, try The GIMP. It's not quite Photoshop. For a price difference of $650 verses free though, it comes pretty damn close. Close enough to make me happy in fact. For those of you who are wondering about the name, GIMP is an acronym for GNU Image Manipulation Program.)


A couple of other programs that I've found fun and/or handy -
(Yeah, I'm getting lazy and am gonna just going to put down the web site's descriptions, or else I'll never get this out.)

Google Earth. "Want to know more about a specific location? Dive right in -- Google Earth combines satellite imagery, maps and the power of Google Search to put the world's geographic information at your fingertips. View exotic locales like Maui and Paris as well as points of interest such as local restaurants, hospitals, schools, and more. Fly from space to your neighborhood. Type in an address and zoom right in. Search for schools, parks, restaurants, and hotels. Get driving directions. Tilt and rotate the view to see 3D terrain and buildings. Save and share your searches and favorites. Even add your own annotations." Endless hours of fun. At least for me anyway.

Writely - an on-line word processor. "Share documents instantly & collaborate real-time. Pick exactly who can access your documents. Edit your documents from anywhere. Nothing to download -- your browser is all you need. Store your documents securely online. Offsite storage plus data backup every 10 seconds." You can upload from word and many other file types, save docs in Writely, on your desktop, or publish to the web or on your blog. I've found it more useful than I thought I would.


Well, that's it for now. I hope you find this handy!

Case Mod: The Ultimate List

Case Mod: The Ultimate List

Case mods or computer case modifications are the ultimate display of geek chic, creativity and hardware prowess! Many of them are pieces of art, whereas others are just plain weird.

(Here are some of the best/wierdest from the site. Many have links to the mod builders sites, with step by step details of how they did it.)


Yes, there is a hamster in this computer!


I think that someone has to much time on thier hands...


I love new uses for old things!


The Hellraiser Puzzlebox mod.


Here's to hoping all ammo was removed before the mod or at least, they have a really good cooling system!



Yes, it is both a functioning computer, and a functioning coffee maker!





This one really amuses me.

The Meaning of Life

I think I've figured it out. Just thought you would like to know.

(And yes, I am both serious and sober!)

What Slanguage Do You Speak?

Your Slanguage Profile

New England Slang: 75%

Victorian Slang: 75%

British Slang: 50%

Aussie Slang: 0%

Canadian Slang: 0%

Prison Slang: 0%

Southern Slang: 0%

What Slanguage Do You Speak?

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence

Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone. You are good at analyzing yourself - and knowing your true feelings. Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires. A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others. You would make a great philosopher, researcher, or theorist.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Things I Like Today - Summer 2006/ Long Overdue edition

Magic Hat Beer!



Most especially Circus Boy

I think #9 is also pretty tasty.





And really, I did enjoy most of the
Summer Variety 12 pack.

I really miss seeing these bottle caps.
And the random things printed on the undersides.





Emo Kid Buddies

Phwoar Teeny Emos <3 Phwoar Teeny Emos <3

THE SILLY SLEEPING POSE OLYMPICS!

Exactly as the name implies. Sleeping cats in silly positions!


1st Annual National Patient Sleep Conference Announced by Talk About Sleep

Again, exactly as the name implies. I'm very excited to get this opportunity!

This T-Shirt from B-Offensive
(Which I have and wear pretty often.) I agree with most of what it says.

And here is what it says-

*ABHORRENT*
(For the illiterate, stuff I hate.)
Taxes * Big government * Bureaucracy * Minimum wage laws * The continual abrogation of the Bill of Rights * People who fail to take responsibility for their own actions * Racism * Affirmative action * The police state * People who advocate 'equal results' over 'equal rights' * The IRS, BATF, DEA, and 99% of all other government agencies * Welfare and other entitlement programs * The Davis-Bacon Act * Protectionism and tariffs * Farm subsidies * People who attempt to force others to accept their belief system about God, drugs, sex, multiculturalism, abortion, etc... with threats of eternal damnation, criminal prosecution, or further physical discomfort through exposure to emotionally charged rhetoric screamed directly into the ear * Stupid laws * Most politicians * Political
correctness * Gun control freaks * People who pass the buck * The War on Drugs * People who like to blame television, video games, or the Internet rather than holding the kids or parents responsible * Censorship * A National ID * The lack of a truly free press * American imperialism * Parents who do not parent * The nanny state * Government surveillance *
Spin, prevarication, equivocation, or any other form of manipulative deception * Communists, Socialists, Marxists, 95% of all democrats and at least 80% of republicans * People who prefer assumptions and wive's tales to facts * Those without any intellectual curiosity * People who don't read * People who have a victim mentality and ask for special treatment * Anyone who is either fiscally liberal or socially conservative * Those opposed to merit *Anyone afraid to think for themselves *

And finally, these quotes, and this word-

"Faith is, at one and the same time, absolutely necessary and altogether impossible." - Stanislaw Lem

"Love is an exploding cigar we willingly smoke." - Lynda Barry

pleonasm: the use of more words than are necessary to express an idea.



That's all for today!

Think Fast Survey

Answer with first thing that pops to mind.

1. My ex is... going to get what's coming to him becuase karma sucks

2. I am listening to... my inner monologue

3. Maybe I should... get some water to drink

4. I love...being alive, even if it does suck sometimes

5. My best friend is... some one I can call in the middle of the night

6. I don't understand... people with out intellectual curiosity

7. I lost... my mind

8. People say... a lot, most of it's crap

9.My birthday is on... wait no, it's off this year

10. Love is... a mountain, but harder to climb (Yup, I've been listening to a lot of Gary Numan lately.)

11. Somewhere, someone is... also bored and filling out this survey

12. I will always... maintain hope

13. Forever seems... like a really long time

14. I never want to... depend on some one else

15. My mobile phone... is in Alex's care right now

16. When I wake up in the morning... I'm tired and mean, so please don't talk to me

17. I get annoyed when... people talk to me in the morning

18. Partying is... something I'm getting to old for

19. My favorite color is... slate gray, moss green or purple

20. Kisses are the best when... there is no slobber

21. Today I... am at work

22. Tomorrow I will... also be at work

23. I really want... to be happy with what I already have

24. I miss... youth and innocence

Yup, another damn survey

Spell your name with just vowels:
First: ia
Middle: No vowels! At least, not technically. I suppose it depends on who you ask, really.
Last: ao

Have you ever drank a beer while taking a shower?
You mean there is some one who has???

What's outside of your office window?
Well, since I don't have an office at work, and my home office is my closet, nothing!

Have you ever led somebody on for free drinks, free dinner, a job, promotion, vacation, etc?
Nah. I tell them right up front that they don't have a snowballs chance in hell, and then let them buy me free drinks. I feel that after you have made it clear that you are not going to be going home with some one any money they spend on you is just stupidity tax.

Have you ever broken any bones?
Nope

Ever ran a marathon?
Uh, that's a joke, right?

Have you ever run over an animal while driving?
Nope

Do you golf?
No

What is your dream job?
Being a writer, or a neuroscientist.

What do you typically have for breakfast everyday?
Who has time for breakfast?

If you could be anywhere right this second where would it be?
Vermont

How many times a week do you work out?
I run around all day at work carrying boxes of paper. I think that counts as a work out on its own!

Do you have any plants in your room?
Nope. I have a black thumb.

Favorite place for a burger?
Upstairs, when Mike grills.

Favorite place to shop?
Bookstores, stationary stores, and art/craft stores.

Dry heat or hot and humid?
Dry. Humid = evil

What band/singer do you have the most CDs of?
Probably The Cure

Creamy or crunchy peanut butter?
Crunchy

What do you wear to bed?
Well, now, I don't think that's any of your business!

Who is on your mind right now?
I'm hungry and tired. I wish a particular co worker would stop talking to me, 'cause I don't care.

What color do you wear most?
Black, but I'm working on diversifying my wardrobe.

Least favorite color?
Yellow or orange

Are you happy with your life right now?
Less than some people, but more than most.

Who do you wish you were with right now?
I'm good, but thanks for asking!

One word to describe you?
quiet

Favorite pair of shoes?
My black Columbia sandals. They're super comfy.

Do you own big sunglasses?
Sadly, I don't own any sunglasses.

What should you be doing right now?
Getting caught up on emails.

10 Names

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet and current street name)
Jenna Girard (My god, that's sound way more like a porn star name to me!)

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your dad's side, your favorite candy)
Alice Maple

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your middle name)
T-Ly

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Gray Tiger

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Lynn Randolph

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 2 letters of mom's maiden name and first 3 letters of the town you grew up in.)
Partrhenor (If anyone out there can figure out how to pronince that, I'd love to know!)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, favorite drink)
The Gray Raspberry Steaz

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first name of both your grandfathers)
Donald Robert

9. FUTURISTIC NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne and the name of your favorite shoes)
Custom Blend Sandels

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: ( mother/father's middle name and the next name you hear on the tv/radio/talk)
Lynn I-don't-watch-TV-or-listen-to-the-radio

When People Are Really Irritating

Okay, just pause. Now take a deep breath. Okay good, now another one. One more. Don't you feel better now? I do.

Note for the day -

None of the little things can bother you. They are as rain is to a duck. They will just roll right off of you, unable to affect you. Don't forget that it's easy to be nice to a pleasant person, but it's a mark of true character to be nice to a difficult one. Even if they make you want to puncture your own eardrums with a rusty bicycle spoke so that you don't have to listen to them. Even when you literally have to bite your tongue to keep from saying something unkind.

Now a couple more deep breaths. Breath in. Now out. Inhale. And exhale. Now you're ready to be polite again, if you can't avoid them for the rest of the day.

A letter to a younger me...

(This is something I posted on a "If you could write a letter to your younger self, what would it say?" thread on a message board I go to.


Dear Younger Me,

Have some fun. Do something crazy. Go ahead and take a dip in the town pool in the middle of the night with your best friend. This is the only time in your life that you are going to be able to get away with it. Soon you'll be "old enough to know better," and will have to act like a mature adult. You'll look back later and wish you had done it.

Don't worry about what other people think of you. It really doesn't matter. Confidence is one of the most attractive traits a person can have. Don't be afraid to be yourself. When you look back, you'll be proud that you dared to do your own thing. You know that you think a little differently than most people. That's okay. It's a strength in fact, not a weakness. There is a place where you fit in, where people will understand you. It's just not this little town, and that's okay too.

Be kinder to yourself. You are such a compassionate person, so accepting of other people. Save a little bit of that acceptance for yourself. It's okay to fall sometimes. The important thing is that you get back up again. It's okay to need others, and to ask for help. It's okay to not always have control over every aspect of yourself. It's okay to cry, and to get angry. You don't have to be nice and quiet and good all the time. In fact, it's not good for you to keep it all in.

Pay attention when you make mistakes. Examine them thoroughly. Figure out where and why you fell short in the first place. There is a lesson you need to learn in there somewhere. If you don't get it the first time, it's just going to repeat itself until you do get it. Usually with more severity, trouble and misery. You don't want that, trust me.

Don't ever settle for 'Good enough, I guess'. If it (or he) isn't what you want, or need than there is something better for you out there. Maybe it's just not time for it yet.

Stop worrying so much about finding love. Enjoy being single for a few years. Relationships complicate your life in ways you don't think of beforehand. That backpacking trip through Europe? All of the sudden making the decision to go takes a lot more consideration. Even just picking up and moving to a new city is a lot more difficult to do. Enjoy just dating for a while. Then once you do meet some one, you'll be ready to a little more tied down, and a lot wiser about relationships, and what you want from them.

Go outside more. Spend more time in the woods, in the mountains. Appreciate the nature around you more. Someday you'll move away from them. You'll long to be back with them every day. You will miss them more than you ever thought it was possible to miss anything. VT will always be your first, truest, and fiercest love.

Stop waiting for that 'something' that is always around the corner. Your life is speeding by while you're waiting for it to start!

With much love,
Older (and a little wiser) Me


P.S. - Don't start smoking. It will take you many tries & a lot of frustration at yourself later on to quit. Even then the temptation to start again will still be there. You'll be happier and healthier if you just don't do it in the first place!

30 Q's

These are supposedly 30 questions that no one would EVER think to ask. Answer them with what comes to mind first.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was your first thought?
Oh good, the mirror's not foggy.

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
The next time I want to.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DUCK"?
luck

4. Favorite planet?
Jupiter

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
Trevor

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
The Cure - Friday I'm In Love although to be honest it's usually on vibrate.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
Pink stretchy tank top that I sleep in.

8. What were you doing 20 minutes ago?
Posting on a message board.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
I'm barefoot.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Dark

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?
I think she's pretty kick ass! I'd love to meet her someday! *L*

12. If you're in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
The one farthest from the window.

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Watching Scrubs season 3, thinking that I should be sleeping.

14. What did your last text message you received say?
"Im runing very late. at an event with my boss will be 1 os 2 hrs"

15. How do you like your eggs?
cooked

16. What's a word/phrase that you say a lot?
"Why do you hate freedom?" (Said in a joking manner to some one who just did something inconvenient to you, or foolish.)

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
Kyle

18. Last furry thing you touched?
My cat.

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
Only one, and it's the one I have a Rx for.

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
None, I've switched to digital.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
27, They seem to be getting better as I get older.

22. Your worst enemy?
I would like to think that I don't have any enemies. If I had to put something down though, I would have to say myself.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
Amon from Witch Hunter Robin

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
I love you too. Have fun.

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
I'd want to fly.

26. What do you wish you were doing right now?
Time spent wishing is time wasted.

27. The last song you listened to?
Nixon, by The Magic Is Gone.

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, what would you do?
kick some ass

29. If you could punch 1 person in the face who's in your life right now, who would it be?
James, because his lack of desire to do his job properly causes my job to be much more difficult.

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
The bottom of the desk.

Homesick

I am so fucking homesick right now. All I want is to be back in Vermont. Back among the mountains. With out them around me I feel lost. Exposed. I'm terrified that I might never get back. So here's to the Green Mountain State, and the piece of my soul that will always reside there.


"The mountains are calling and I must go." (John Muir)




"Thousands of tired, nerve-shaken, over-civilized people are beginning to find out that going to the mountain is going home; that wildness is necessity; that mountain parks and reservations are useful not only as fountains of timber and irrigating rivers, but as fountains of life." (John Muir)




"No matter how sophisticated you may be, a large granite mountain cannot be denied - it speaks in silence to the very core of your being." (Ansel Adams)




"Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower." (Albert Camus)




"In the depth of winter I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer." (Albert Camus)





"In some mysterious way woods have never seemed to me to be static things. In physical terms, I move through them; yet in metaphysical ones, they seem to move through me." (John Fowles)








"I go to nature to be soothed and healed, and to have my senses put in order. " (John Burroughs)







"Marry a mountain girl and you marry the whole mountain. " (Irish Saying)









"Once you have heard the lark, known the swish of feet through hill-top grass and smelt the earth made ready for the seed, you are never again going to be fully happy about the cities and towns that man carries like a crippling weight upon his back". (Gwyn Thomas)





There you have it folks- my photo tribute to Vermont.

Another damn survey

1. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD?
Oh hells no!

2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A t-shirt from Engrish

3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
I can think of a two or three folks... Mmmm, Robert Smith.....

4. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
36 of 52. Most of the rest are bands

5. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
none thanks

6. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
I have a great relationship with my mom. My father, not so much.

7. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
That I may be called Beloved by the one who holds my heart is the only name I desire.

8. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX?
I've been trying to think of something witty and evasive to put here, but I'm not coming up with anything, so I'll just say yes, if I as single and I found her attractive.

9. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY?
Since it's a work day, 5:45am

10. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
Drinking beer & watching The Labyrinth with Colleen and Nancy.

11. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO?
Irene, err I mean, see Irene. Yeah, that's it!

12. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
The last week in June.

13. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
I'd pay off all my debt, and all my mom's. I'd fly Irene over to visit. I'd (finally) go to collage. I'd get an accountant and invest what ever was left over. (Wishful thinking, I know!) Oh yeah, I'd also by a Mac laptop!

14. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
Nope.

15. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Does coffee count?

16. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
This is a silly question! I don't have a favorite month. I do like the warm ones better than the cold ones though!

17. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
See the question right above this one.

18. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
You tell me when the last time I borrowed clothing from some one was, and maybe I can tell you what it was!

19. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW?
You, with all these damn questions!

20. MOST VISITED WEB PAGE?
Myspace, gmail, engrish, and a message board that shall remain nameless to protect the innocent!Or at least, to protect my private venting spot!

21. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
Probably Bev

33. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD?
People who don't email me!

34. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
With out a seconds hesitation.

35. FAVORITE KIND OF DRINK?
Alcoholic- An Illusion of True Love; Beer- Magic Hat's Circus Boy, followed by Long Trail's Blackberry Wheat and Blue Moon; Non-alcoholic- Raspberry Steaz; Caffeinated- Mexican Coke

36. FAVORITE FOOD?
I don't have one.

37. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Cannoli, or Raspberry Mascarpone.

38. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
Not yet, but I'd love to!

Cranky time survey!

(Just as an FYI, I was apparently a bit cranky when I filled this out, so some of the language may be a bit, err, colorful!)



~*How Many *~
Cookies could you eat at once? I prefer to eat them one at a time since I think it's pretty gross to shove half a box of cookies in your mouth all at once!
Pickles have you eaten at once? Occasionally I'll get a whole pickle if I'm at a deli, but usually I don't really like them.
Times do you clean your room a year? 26 or so
Times do you pee during the night? None.
Times a week it is necessary to clean the house? If you pick up after yourself, it only needs to be done once a week.
You bathe your pets in a year? Ha! If you think my cat needs a bath, you come bathe her!
You brush your teeth a day? Usually twice, sometimes 3.
Meals you eat a day? One on weekdays, two on weekends. (Yeah, I know I should eat more!)
Approximate pounds of chocolate you've consumed in your life? I have no fricken' clue! Enough to crush you I'm sure, you nosey little prick!
Classes have you failed? None
Times do you cry a week? Hopefully none. While we're on the subject, is there anything else you'd like to know? Maybe I could dig up my most painful memory for you and we could talk about that too!
Jeans that you own? 3 pair
Money in your wallet? I'd love some thanks! I'm fresh out.
Birthmarks do you have? One
Times have you dyed your hair? How many times has President Bush said something idiotic? By which I mean, too fucking many to count!!!
Years you wish you could go back in time? No thanks, I'm more or less okay with my past.
Hours of TV do you watch a day? TV rots your damn brain. Go read a book!
Times do you watch the news a week? Watch, none. Read on line, at least once a day.
Sodas do you consume in a day? That shit will rot your brain & make you chubby! Oh, and give you diabetes.
Sheep do you want on your farm? How do you come up with these questions?
Pets do you have? One.


~*Do you believe in: (or support)*~
Ghosts? Yup
Aliens? It's not entirely unlikely
Sex without emotional attachment? Not my thing, but I hear it works for some people
Abortion? Yeah, I'm gonna pass on this one. Way too touchy of a subject!
Our president? Do I believe that he is alive? Yes, yes I do. Do I think he should be president? No, no I do not. (See answer to hair dying question in the section above this one if you have any doubts!)
Superstitions? I like to say no, but I've got a couple.
Botox? No thanks.
Plastic surgery? For people that are horribly disfigured, or have been in an accident sure. Because you're too lazy to exercise to loose some weight, that's just lame.
Politics? I think that we'd be doing a lot better as a country if more people payed attention!
Religion? Yup
The bible? We'll just say yes & leave it at that for now. If you're interested in the full answer message me & I'll gladly talk religion & theology.
Yourself? Most of the time.




~*Which one are you?...*~
You make the first moves, OR your bf/gf makes the first moves? I'll let them make the first move, but I like it when they play just a little hard to get.
You are a city OR country person? Right now I'm a city person, but deep down, I'll always be a country girl.
You think more with Passion OR Logic? Logic. The human heart is a capricious little beast that will happily betray you at the first opportunity it gets!
You eat more Chinese OR Mexican? Mexican, but it would be about even if I could find a decent Chinese delivery place around here dammit!
You'd rather go to Disney world OR Universal studios? Six Flags! Forget the silly themes & just give me the damn roller coasters!
You'd rather die with your love by your side, OR without them? Well, that's a tricky one. Of course, I'd rather have them there. On the other hand, I wouldn't want them to have to watch me die. And if you're talking about dying at the same time, only if we're old & it's peacefully in our sleep. I'd like to think that I'm not selfish enough to believe that just because I'm dead he shouldn't get to be alive either!
You'd rather drink Milk OR juice? Juice. Real juice, not this 10% fruit juice crap that's mostly corn syrup & water!
Your a Cat OR dog person? I like them both a lot.
Smoothies OR Milkshakes? Depends on if it's a meal replacement or dessert.
You'd rather be a Snake OR a turtle? Snake. Turtles can't climb, go very fast, or hide with ease!
You'd rather watch OR play sports? If by play sports you mean join in a rousing conversation that will likely increase my knowledge and/or help me to see something from another point of view, I'm down for either! If you mean get sweaty & out of breath & probably hurt myself or watch grown men run about in tights & grab each other's asses, then I don't want to do either, thanks.
Shy OR outgoing? Shy, but I'm trying to be more outgoing.
Night Owl OR Day Bird? Night owl
Chocolate Cake OR Apple Pie? Chocolate cake
Comedy OR Romance Films? Horror
Committed relationships OR Free as a Bird? Being in a relationship is a-okay by me.
Alternative rock OR 70s Disco Music? Alt-Rock
Conservative OR Wild Party Animal? Neither, liberal nerd
Rather get quilled by a porcupine OR stung by a jelly fish? No thanks, I'm good

~*My very favorite*~
Type of food: I really like steak. I also really like potatoes. And chocolate. And slightly under-ripe peaches, berries of any sort, pizza, chicken, star fruit, corn, peas, and well, you get the idea, don't you?
Font: Georgia
Color: clear
Animal: White Bengal Tigers
Place to be: Vermont
Kiss: One from Kyle
Beatle: I kinda like the iridescent shiny ones! Oh, you said Beatle, not beetle! *shrugs* Why should I have a favorite?
Topic/subject to study: Neuroscience
Celebrity: My feelings about celebrities range from don't really care to what makes you think I give a damn?
Channel to watch: Discovery, TLC, Animal Planet
TV show: Scrubs, Gilmore Girls
Type of music: I'll admit it, I'm an indie rock girl. I'm not tied to a particular type, I like a little of everything. If it's well written, and has decent lyrics. Preferably written by the singer or at least some one in the band.


~*Can you/ Would you....*~
Put your legs behind your head? I used to be able to. Just a sec, let me check. Er, nope. Not after a long day at work, a bit buzzed and wearing jeans. I can almost put my left leg behind my head though!
Do calculus problems? Sadly, nope
Eat gross foods for money? No thanks. I prefer dignity and self respect to money. But just for the sake of conversation, what did you have in mind, and how much are you offering?
Beat someone up? Ha! I wish!
Swim long distances? I used to be able to. Not so sure now though. There's no place to swim around here.
Wrestle alligators? If I can't beat anyone up, what in hell would make you you think I could wrestle an alligator?
Return a million dollars of you randomly found it? Yeah, 'cause Karma's a bitch.
Eat raw fish? Mm, sushi
Love someone unconditionally? Often, fully and with out reservations.
Laugh at yourself? This is something else I do often.
Lick your elbow? Ever since I got those pesky bones removed from my arms it's been so much easier!
Watch Sept 11th or Hurricane disaster stories without crying? Nah, I'm a big softy. I'm way too empathetic. (Which is a good thing mostly, but it can be a bad thing.)

Please excuse me one moment while I un-bunch my panties.

Please excuse me for one moment, but I've got my panties in a bunch, and I need to vent. In fact they've been bunched for a little while now. I tried to ignore it, but that didn't really work out so well for me, so I'm going to get it out of my system now.


I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF ALL THIS BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, I did type that is Caps to denote yelling. I think you all know who you are! I am just so sick of it. And tired. I'm so fucking emotionally drained. I'm sick of being miserable about things I can't deal with, and I'm so sick of crying. I've done enough of it already this year. I have enough of my own shit to deal with, I just don't have the time or the energy for the passive-aggressive bullshit right now.

Point One- If you have something to say to me, just say it. Please! If it's something I don't want to hear, or something that may hurt me, don't you think I'll just figure it out eventually anyway? And don't you think it'll hurt me more to find that you didn't feel you could talk to me openly?

Point Two- If you tell other people, it will get back around to me eventually. That's just the way it is. So I wish you'd just tell me in the first place, and avoid the middle man!

Point Three- If you are upset because we are not spending as much time together as we used to, why in the hell wouldn't you say something to me. Something like "Hey, you haven't been around lately. Is everything okay?" just may be a good fucking place to start. Because, yeah, nothing was okay this winter. I felt like my life was falling down around me. I'm still picking up the pieces. So this fucking "Who does Aeryn like better?" bullshit really hurts. It really fucking hurts. More than I can even attempt to convey. In more ways then one. I feel that anyone who really knows me, and cares about me would have called me if I hadn't been around for a couple of weeks, and made sure things were okay. And that anyone who really knows me would know that I don't just drop old friends for knew ones. Period. I have more than one friend that if I met today, I would probably never get to know. But that it irrelevant, because they are my friend. End of story.

Point Four- I guess I'm just really upset. And disappointed. Not just in you, but in myself too. For not being a better judge of character. For allowing myself to love you as friends. I have spent so much time tying to tell myself that it doesn't matter to me. That I could just be the bigger person and let it go. Well, big fucking surprise for me, I can't. No matter how many times I tell myself I can. I have spent so much time being upset over these things, and so much time crying over them, that I just can't to any more. I don't want to, and I don't have the energy. If you have something to say to me, just say it to my face. I think that I deserve that much respect just as a person, if nothing else.

So yeah, thank you to all of you who have actually read this. I think those of you who this is in reference to will know it I hope that, well I don't know what I hope. I know that I feel better for saying it. I guess I hope that it can be a learning experience for us all, and that we can all do better next time.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

In a Past Life...

You Were: A Genius Philosopher. Where You Lived: Italy. How You Died: Hung for treason.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Karma

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person. And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already. But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway. You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

How's Your Karma?

Fortune Cookie! Yay!

Your Fortune Is

Never have sex with a stranger unless you are stranger than them.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

I think that leaves me pretty open to any opertunity that comes my way! *L*