Ah, to be 17 again part 1 - high school love

The velvety darkness of night fell
With my doubts
And our clothes
We made our promises
By the light of the moon
And gave each other all we had
ourselves
(1996)



Sunrise
The sun rose
Outside
The window
And in my eyes
And I looked at you
As if for the first time
And saw the light
In your eyes too
And I knew the sun would never set
That you
Would be my light
Forever
(1996)



Life
It was the morning after
Life
Only I didn�t die today
When the sun rose
And I thought
This is a day to remember
The day I was alive
And the sun didn't burn
And neither did the pain
And the night wasn't so cold
Because I knew
You love me
(1996)



Breakfast
I ate a hash brown
And told you I loved you
And you asked me
Did I ever eat
And I said yes
Sometimes
And I knew
You loved me
As you smiled
And drank your
orange juice
(1996)



You touched my hand
You touched my heart
And we flew
Together
Dancing in the stars
You and I
(1996)



Reality
Am I real?
Am I alive?
Should I care?
Should I strive?
Is my reflection really me?
Am I really what you see?
If I touch my hand to yours
Will I feel as I did before?
Is this love ours to keep?
Do you see me in your sleep?
Are you the one to make me whole?
Are you the one to touch my soul?
Please be the one to make me feel
Please be the one to make me real
(96/97)



tame me
name me
turn me into something beautiful pure new
hold me
mold me
shape me
as strong as the mountains soft as the valleys
in me
win me
awake my mind body soul
mark me
spark me
set fire to my heart cool down my spirit
show me
know me
take me to another time place life
mend me
defend me
fix this broken heart hear these broken words
(96/97)



I smiled this morning
Into my Lucky Charms
Remembering
We used to eat them together
Everyday
And never wanted anything more
(Fall, 1997)




To be that idealistic & hopefull again!

Ah, to be 17 again part 2 - teen-age angst

Dance of the Demons
They came back last night
To sit on my bed
They came back last night
To take me for dead
Demons dancing in my head
Singing in my mind
Demons dancing in my head
Say "Come, be of our kind"
Don't want the dark to come
They come with the fleeing of light
Don't want the dark to come
I won't get any sleep tonight
(96/97)




Demon eyes
if you look closely
in my eyes
you can see
the demons
that haunt me
that drive me
from me
that make me
want to end it all
so I can finally
get some
sleep
(96/97)




Momma
Momma, sit up with me tonight
I don't want to sleep
The monster in my closet moved
Into my head
And he won't go away
Momma, sit up with me tonight
I don't want to dream
Shadowy spider webs trap me
In their world
Where I always die
Momma, sit up with me tonight
I don't want to cry
(96/97)




Empty
Fell out of my shell again
Hurry
Pick up the pieces
Before somebody notices
And if they don't all fit
Well it's okay
I can do without
And if I put it all together wrong
Well that's okay too
At least I'm whole again
Fell out of my shell again
Better pick up the pieces
Before I notice
(96/97)




Eyes Sewn Shut
Mother, open your eyes,
Father, is it such a big surprise?
That I turned out this way,
That I'm not okay?
When you said I'd be a loser, an embarrassment to you,
After all those years, how could I not think it true?
A little faith was all I was needing,
And maybe my heart wouldn't be bleeding
I had to find my solace somehow,
Drugs and alcohol showed me how.
Life is a game I cannot win,
Although I may give up, I will not give in.
To your ideals and society's way,
What I feel is what I will say.
Because you had no faith, because you didn't believe,
Neither did I, and it is pain that I leave.
If you ever cared why didn't you say so?
Then maybe this wouldn't be the path I would have to go.
(96/97)
(Although the rest are all from my emotions/ experiences, this one has a large strand of truth at it's center, but is exaggerated a bit.)



Meta
Fading into the light
I lost my darkness somewhere
Tried to get it back
Found myself in nowhere
Slipped into the sun
Could not find a raindrop
Without the pouring water
Somehow felt my soul drop
Pulled off my star
Free falling in this lost space
Where is my shadowy comfort?
Need to find my own space
(96/97)




Stone
Harsh fluorescent light
From dull dusty lips
Hard cracked cement
Forms hand, feet, hips
Not all that special
Guess after all I'm like the rest
Just a rusty piece of metal
Far from the best
Mind made of brick
Heart made of stone
Is it any wonder
That I feel alone?
(96/97)

Wow! Everything seemed so much larger back then, didn't it? It seems like there really wasn't a lot of middle ground. Everything was either great, or terrible. I'm glad I've found some balance since then! I'm also glad to have learned that a poem doesn't have to rhyme to be good!

Dream land

I'm board at work, and sleepy, here are ten cute sleeping kittens for you all-

Meow! My name is Aeryn. And I am apparently up for adoption!

I found this under my real name while wandering around the web. I was greatly amused. I don't think I'd make a very good lap cat, but the rest is pretty close to the truth! *L*

Aeryn's info...
Color: White Sex: Female Age: Adult Hair: Long

Aeryn is:
already spayed
good with cats
up to date with shots

Aeryn's story...

Aeryn is a stunningly beautiful girl. She is shy and takes a bit to warm up but is very loving once you have gained her trust. We really believe that Aeryn would be a lap cat in a home environment. She loves to play peek-a-boo from behind boxes and likes to game play with you when you go to pick her up. She has never shown any sign of aggression with people or other cats. Aeryn needs a home where she can truly relax and let her wonderful and sweet personality shine. For more information on Aeryn please call (502)633-XXXX or Melissa (502)220-XXXX

Contact this shelter to adopt Aeryn ...
Shelter: Shelby County Humane Society
Contact: Lisa L____
Phone: (502) 633-XXXX
- Let 'em know you saw "Aeryn" on 1-800-Save-A-Pet.com!
E-mail: XXXXXXXXXXXXX@bellsouth.net

Our Adoption Process...
ADOPTION FEE: $50.00
An Adoption Application must be completed for each potential adoption and approved by a shelter representative also an Adoption Agreement must be signed at the time of adoption. The welfare of the animals in our care is of utmost importance. We make every possible effort to ensure that our animals are placed in safe and loving environments.

What do you think? Are you up to the challange of adopting me?

Just 'cause I'm feeling a little negative

MOST HATED...

FRUIT: grapefruit

CANDY: watermelon Jolly Ranchers

BEVERAGE: Grapefruit juice

COLOR: pale orange-y brown

TOWN/CITY: Bethel, VT; Woodsville, NH (Sorry guys- just too many bad memories there.)

TV SHOW: I don't watch a lot of TV.

MOVIE: *shrugs* I dunno. I'm sure there is something I watched that I hated, I just can't think of any right now.

ASPECT OF MYSPACE: That I can't look at a list of all of my blog entries.

BUG: Fleas, or really, anything that bites.

SEASON: winter

AGE OF KIDS: As long as their parents actually parent, and the kids aren't little terrors, I like them at any age.

WHAT ANNOYS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING WHEN...

DRIVING?: Other drivers.

WATCHING TV OR MOVIES: Falling asleep

EATING IN RESTAURANTS: Finding out that I don't like something after I've already ordered it.

GOING THROUGH DRIVE-THRUS: Getting home & finding out that I didn't get the whole order.

YOU'RE AT THE MALL: People who randomly stop in the middle of the aisle to gawk at a store window, instead of moving to side to look. Surprise! You're not the only person at the mall after all! People who walk 3,4,5 (etc.) abreast, so that they take up the entire aisle. Surprise! You're not the only person at the mall after all either! Ah hell, I should just say having to deal with the sheeple.

SLEEPING (OR TRYING TO SLEEP): Having to wake up

SHOWERING: Realizing I tossed the dirty towel in the laundry, but forgot to get a clean one.

YOU'RE AT THE BEACH: Remembering that I'm at a lake front beach, and that the water is probably full of some sort of gross bacteria that I don't want to swim in.

YOU'RE AT THE GROCERY STORE: Getting stuck behind that asshole who is trying to argue with the cashier over rather or not the 15 cent off coupon they have is valid. Really, it's 15 freakin' cents. It doesn't matter that much.

COOKING OR BAKING: Scrubbing the pots & pans.



WHAT HOUSEHOLD CHORE DO YOU HATE THE MOST?: dishes

WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING HABIT IN OTHERS?: Purposefulnt ignorance

WHAT IS YOUR WORST HABIT? procrastination

WHAT FASHION TREND (PAST OR PRESENT): ultra low rise jeans & belly shirts

WHAT POPULAR SONG (PAST OR PRESENT) HAVE YOU HATED THE MOST?: Really, I have no idea. I guess I just don't dwell on the things I dislike. *shrugs*

WORST OR MOST HATED PICKUP LINE: Anything that is supposed to impress me by way of material possessions or social status.

WORST THING ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL: Not realizing how unimportant the whole social scene really was.

MOST IRRITATING THING ABOUT YOUR CAR: Nothing! I don't have one, and I love that.

TO BE COMPLETELY STEREOTYPICAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT GIRLS?: Cattiness

TO BE COMPLETELY STEREOTYPICAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT GUYS?: The belief that 'real men' don't show emotion.

WHAT'S ANNOYING YOU TODAY?: my overly sensitive skin

Where the jobs are in Central Vermont? or Why I don't live in VT

Where the jobs are in Central Vermont
Or perhaps, where the jobs aren't in Central Vermont.

Montpelier is the municipality that hosts the largest number of jobs in Central Vermont, but Berlin can make a case for "region's largest employment" community.
Berlin has ousted Barre City as the municipality with the second most jobs, and its ratio of jobs to residents far exceeds Montpelier's.
Overall, Central Vermont has a job for every two residents. Berlin has 3.6 jobs for every two residents, or 3.6 times the regional average. Montpelier has 2.2 jobs for every two residents, and is the only other municipality with more jobs than residents.
Northfield and Barre Town each have just over 1,800 jobs, but both are well below the regional average of jobs to residents.

As a side note, there are 1,800 jobs in Northfield, but 5,756 residents. Even once you factor in children and retired residents, you still get more residents than available jobs.

This is why I am not going to be moving back home anytime soon, despite the fact that I miss Vermont terribly.I'm so homesick for the mountains, the fresh air, the little ice cold streams, the fresh air, the people, being able to see the stars, and so many other things. Someday...

Things I like!

Good Morning! Welcome to Things I Like! In this brand new, possibly semi-regular feature, I'm going to just randomly slap up thinks I like, websites, pictures, words that I think should be used more often, or anything else that amuses my poor sleep addled brain! Enjoy!

Today in Things I Like - t-shirts from b-offensive.com, and a couple of words that I think should get more use!


T-Shirts I like, but would probably never wear:

More things I like!

Some words that are delightful to use:

-rumble (as in fight)

-cockamamie

-shenanigans

-dodgy

And the big winner of the day goes to- sheeple!
Since most of you are probably thinking What the hell is a sheeple right now, here it is in a sentence, as I first saw it, on b-offensive's website: 
   "Since the vast majority of the American populace is comprised of blathering idiots, we've made four "Amendment T-shirts" to highlight to the sheeple what we believe to be some of our (and their) greatest rights."
And the definition, courtesy of Google and Wiki:
   Sheeple is a term of disparagement, created by combining the words "sheep" and "people." It implies that those people it references believe whatever they are told, without processing it to be sure that it is an accurate representation of the real world around them. The term can be applied to any group, often in a political or comedic sense.



And some quotes I happened upon that I like-
 
   "Everything great and intelligent is in the minority."
-Goethe

   "What a distressing contrast between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult." -Freud 

   "I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with senses, reason, and intellect, has intended us to forgo their use..." 
-Galileo

I'm bored... Or, another survey

I'm bored...


sat through a whole episode of...
(I'm going to assume they mean in the past year.)

[x] scrubs.
[ ] the simple life.
[ ] family guy.
[ ] saturday night live.
[ ] that 70s show.
[ ] degrassi.
[ ] america's next top model.
[ ] spongebob
[ ] the surreal life.
[ ] american idol.
[ ] house.
[ ] grey's anatomy.
[ ] malcolm in the middle.
[ ] the real world.
[x] gilmore girls.
[ ] the oc.
[ ] everwood.
[ ] i love the 70s, 80s, 90s.
[ ] e.r.
[ ] instant star.
[ ] the wiggles
[ ] laguna beach.
[ ] the apprentice.
[ ] the soup.
[ ] date my mom.
[ ] sex in the city.
[ ] 24.
[ ] lost.
[ ] prison break.
[ ] desperate housewives.
[ ] the simpsons.
[ ] the sopranos.
[x] my name is earl.
[ ] friends.
[x] the office.
[ ] will & grace.
[ ] seinfeld.
[ ] zoey101.
[ ] pimp my ride.
[ ] saved by the bell.
[ ] so notorious.
[ ] punk'd.
[ ] boy meets world.

answer yes or no

Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: yes
2. Buy something: no
3. Get sick: no
4. Sing: yes
5. Make out and or kissed someone: no (By which I mean, not yet!)

*Wonders where questions 6 & 7 wandered off to...*

8. Talk to an ex: no
9. Miss someone: yes
_______________________________________________

Last person who....

10. Lay with you: Xombii
11. Saw you cry: Xombii
12. Made you cry: Myself
13. Went to the movies with: Xombii
14. You hugged: Xombii
15. Said I love you to you: Xombii
_________________________________________________

16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: yes
17. Been to California: no
18. Been to Mexico: no
19. Been to Canada: yes
20. Been to Europe: no
_________________________________________________

Random....

21. Looking forward to something: Why yes I am, thanks for asking.

22. What book are you reading now: Foucault's Pendulum by Umberto Eco, for the 2nd time. I love this book!

*Wonders where questions 23 & 24 also wandered off to...*

25. What do you sleep with: Xombii, a sheet, a pillow or two, the fan on

26. What's under your bed: the floor

27. Favorite sport to watch: No thank you

28. Location: In front of my computer.

29. Piercing/tattoos: Yup

30. What are you most scared of right now: A never ending stream of quizzes and surveys I compulsively feel the need to fill out and post on my blog.

31. Where do you want to get married?: As long as the groom shows up, the rest is all minor details.

32. Who do you really hate?: FedEx Kinko's

33. Do you have a job: Yup. I like all that silly shit like eating, having a place to live, etc.

34. Do you like being around people: A select few people, but not all the time.

*Wonders where question 35 also wandered off to. Is starting to worry about all the missing questions. Are they okay? Did they just ditch the survey to go smoke behind the firewall? Are they stranded in Chinatown?*

36. Have you ever cried: What a damn foolish question. Of course I have. I think what you meant was:
Are you mature and self confidant enough to admit that you have cried?

37. Are you lonely right now: nope

38. Song that's stuck in your head: In a Dark Place by Gary Numan

39. Have you ever played strip poker: nope

*Question 40 is also missing. Hmm...*

41. Been on radio/TV: I was on the radio for about 45 seconds when I was in high school. I answered a trivia question correctly & won a CD

42. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap: Yeah. Happily it was years ago, and I smartened up and got them out of my life.


FIRSTS

1. First school: was in a suburb of Richmond, Virginia

2. First screen name: Dear god, you expect me to remember that? Eliona? Not the first, but earliest I remember.

3. First funeral: A great uncle

4. First big trip: Technically it was to Georgia from Vermont, but since I was less than a year old, I don't really think that it counts. The first trip that I remember was probably from Vermont to Virginia and back when I was little.

5. First celebrity love: I'd like to plead the 5th on this one! *cringes*

6. First job: babysitting, My first real job (With a paycheck, taxes withheld and all of that lovely crap) was working for my mom at the store she owned when I was 11 or 12.)

*Question 7? Where are you?*
_______________________________________________

Everyone also has their lasts...

8. Last person you hugged: Xombii

9. Last song you heard?: Hell's Half Acre by A Whisper In The Noise. I am in fact listening to it right now.

10. Last car ride: A friend gave Xombii & I a ride home from the Murder By Death concert on Sunday. Have I mentioned yet what a kick ass band they are? And that you should check them out? I did? Oh, sorry. But they are, and you should!

11. Last time you cried: Last week

12. Last movie you watched: Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon

13. Last food you ate: A chicken fajita burrito from Chipotle

14. Last shirt worn: *looks down* My B-offensive 'Abhorrent' t-shirt.

NYC Mayor Advocates U.S. Worker Database

NYC Mayor Advocates U.S. Worker Database

May 24 6:49 PM US/Eastern
By SARA KUGLER Associated Press Writer



Republican Mayor Michael Bloomberg thrust himself into the national immigration debate Wednesday, advocating a plan that would establish a DNA or fingerprint database to track and verify all legal U.S. workers.

In an editorial for The Wall Street Journal and two nationally televised interviews, the mayor reiterated his long-standing belief that the 12 million undocumented immigrants in the United States should be given the opportunity for citizenship, saying that deporting them is impossible and would devastate the economy.

Aides said that the editorial was his idea and that CNN and Fox News approached him to discuss his views on the air.

In the article and on air, Bloomberg slammed lawmakers who want to deport all illegal immigrants, saying on Fox News that "they are living in a fantasy world."

Bloomberg compared his proposed federal identification database to the Social Security card, insisting that such a system would not violate citizens' privacy and was not a civil liberties issue.

"You don't have to work _ but if you want to work for a company you have to have a Social Security card," he said. "The difference is, in the day and age when everybody's got a PC on their desk with Photoshop that can replicate anything, it's become a joke."

The mayor said DNA and fingerprint technology could be used to create a worker ID database that will "uniquely identify the person" applying for a job, ensuring that cards are not illegally transferred or forged.

Donna Lieberman, director of the New York Civil Liberties Union, said a DNA or fingerprint database "doesn't sound like the free society we think we're living in."

"It will inevitably be used not just by employers but by law enforcement, government agencies, schools and all over the private sector," she said.


I can understand where Mayor Bloomburg is coming from, but I have to say that I agree with Donna Lieberman. The implications of this are downright scary.

Poetry

She's too old to be brave
anymore
life is too uncertain
things move too quickly
she doesn't understand
the way things move these days
so she stays
in her empty life
in her loveless home
because it's the life she knows
it may be devoid of happiness
but it's hers
and it's consistent
and she's not so young anymore
she doesn't realize
that it's never too late
to start over
05-09-04


this tortured soul
that walks in invisible tears
all shades of gray
always in shadows
never in the sun
nor in the safety of true black
I'm unforgiven
by the one that matters most
myself
I can not put these ghosts to rest
I don't know how
to slay them where they sleep
I don't know how
to control them when they wake
I drown here over and over
in the guilt and pain
waiting for the shadows
to swallow me whole
05-14-04

The RPG Class Test

Mystic Theurge 33 Combativeness, 26 Sneakiness, 79 Intellect, 61 Spirituality

Brilliant and spiritual! You are a Mystic Theurge! Score! You have a prestige class. A prestige class can only be taken after you've fulfilled certain requirements. This may mean that you're an exceptionally talented person, but it probably doesn't. The Mystic Theurge is a combination of a cleric and a mage. They can cast both arcane and divine spells, and are good at both, making them pretty terrifying on the battlefield. They have more raw spellpower than just about any other class. You're both intelligent and faithful, but not violent or deceitful. I guess that makes you a pretty good person.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 34% on Combativeness You scored higher than 26% on Sneakiness You scored higher than 74% on Intellect You scored higher than 72% on Spirituality

Link: The RPG Class Test written by MFlowers on Ok Cupid

The Really QUICK Reassuringly EASY Test

Freakin' Genius! You scored 100wesomeness!

You are wonderful! If awesomeness was a crime, you'd be in jail for life. You win 1,000,000 points and the respect and admiration of millions of fans. Here is a gold star for you:

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: href="http://www.okcupid.com"> You scored higher than 21_b> on Awesomeness

href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=17424013582712992446">The Really QUICK Reassuringly EASY Test written by andyash on   href="http://www.okcupid.com">Ok Cupid

50 Questions

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5 feet 3 & 3/4 inches

2. Have you ever been unfaithful in a relationship?
No.

3. Do you own a gun?
I don't own one, but I live with one.

4. If you had a mental disorder, what would it be?
None of your damn business, that's what it would be!

5. How many letters are in your crush's name?
*Sticks my tounge out at the silly, silly question*

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
I love them. Yes, I do know what is in them, I just choose not to think about it. The kosher hot dogs from the carts outside of places like Home Depot & Costco are the best. (Oh, & I also believe that hot dogs should never be boiled, period.)

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
*shrugs* We Three Kings I suppose. After so many years of working in retail, I have a hard time listening to Christmas music with out being overcome with rage & despair.

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Something caffeinated

9. Do you do push-ups?
Nope. I can do push-ups, I probably should do push-ups, but I prefer not to.

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
No, and no thanks! I'm not really interested in sudden heart failure.

11. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I have a boyfriend, but not a boyfriend/girlfriend combo as mentioned above. I think that having a boyfriend/girlfriend all in one person would be way too much hassle.

12. Do you like the rain?
I am the rain. Coming down to cover you. Err, nope, sorry, that's Tom Shears, not me. Yes, I do like the rain. I love rain in fact.

14. Do you own a knife?
I own several, that I keep in my kitchen to cut food with. I do also have a boot knife, that I don't really use.

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
Do you have any manners? I'm going to refer you to question 4, and while you are re-reading my answer I'm going to try to get those damn bees out of my bonnet.

16. Full initials?
I'll give you a hint, there are 3 letters involved.

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment.
-I don't know why I feel so compelled to do these, when some damn question or another always makes me uppity.
-I wish I could remember what time I punched out.
-I wish it was time to go home.

18. Name the last 3 things you bought.
-french onion dip
-milk (hormone & antibiotic free, from cows fed a vegetarian diet.)
-whipping cream

19. Name five friends you chilled with this weekend.
Xombii, Scott, Mayako, Heather, Colleen

20. What time did you wake up today?
5:50am which is my normal wake up time on week days.

21. Can you spell?
More or less. I'm better at recognizing that words are spelled wrong than figuring out the proper spelling. I <3 spell check!

Where are questions 22- 28?
Last night, they learned the hard way the great ideas you get when drink are rarely that great. They're going to be out of comission for a little bit.

29. Do you burn or tan?
Neither! I don't want skin cancer, so I use sunscreen. If I am outside with out sunscreen though, I burn, then tan a little.

30. Yellow or blue?
Blue.

31. Would you be a pirate?
I don't think I can be a pirate. I'm already a ninja.

32.Last time your cell rang?
Last night at about 8pm. Unless it rang at some piont today. I don't check it when I'm at work.

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Whatever is in my head at the moment. If I don't know the lyrics there is a 50/50 chance I'll either hum until I get to where I remeber them, or I'll make them up.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
The Bad Man who would tickle me to death, or a poltergiest from my mirror. (Hey you, laughing at that. Yes, I can see you there, Asshole. The Bad Tickling Man was a very terrifying recurring nightmare I had as a child, so piss off!)

35. What's in your pockets right now?
Left pocket- my iPod. Right pocket- 1 black click-top pen; 1 ultra-fine sharpie in a very nice shade of blue; 1 tube Burt's Bee's beeswax lip Balm, mildly peppermint flavored; and 5 $1 bills.

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
*shrugs* they were bed sheets. Can't say as I ever really noticed. Well, I have to admit, I was very fond of my NKOTB pillow case.

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
Splitting my chin wide open & needing to get it stiched back up sucked, but spraining a shoulder muscle was far, far more painful.

39. What is your GPA?
No idea. It's been a few years since I was in school. Somewhere around 3.75 I think?

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2, well, three right now, but on belongs to a friend.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
Patience

42. Who is your most silent friend?
Me? I'm my friend, and I am the most silent person I know...

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
Um, the uber attentive but harmless security guard at the building I work did. I haven't seen him in a while though, so hopefully he has forgotten about me by now.

44. Do you wish here & there..
Do I wish the questions weren't random gibberish? Why yes, yes I do.

45. What is your favorite book?
The Little Prince by followed by: 1984, Brave New World, American Gods, and hell, if you really want to know just read my damn myspace profile!

46. What song did you last hear?
Shiola, by Murder by Death. Anyone out there who hasn't heard them yet, I highly recommened them. Murder By Death's myspace page is http://www.myspace.com/murderbydeath. Or you can go to there official band page at http://www.murderbydeath.com/

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
Hmmm, not sure. I suppose I don't really care. It's not like I'm going to be there!

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
Taking silly on-line quizes with Xombii.

50. Whats an obsession you have?
Stopping those damn bees from buzzing so loadly so maybe I can get them out of my bonnet.

You're a 90's kid if:

You're a 90's kid if:

You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"

You just cant resist finishing this... "Iiiiiiin West Philadelphia born and raised..."

You remember TGIF on ABC and wouldn't miss it

"Miss Susie had a steam boat, the steam boat had a bell..miss Suzie went to heaven the steamboat went to hell_o operator please give me number 9 and if you disconnect me I'll kick you from behind the refrigerator, there was a piece of glass, miss Suzie sat upon it and broke her little ass_k me no more questions, please tell me no more lies the boys are in the bathroom zipping up their flies, are in the cornfield the bees are in their hives .......................... miss Suzie and her boyfriend are kissing in the D-A-R-K- D-A-R-K D-A-R-K dark dark dar dar da dark"

You remember when Kurt Cobain, 2Pac, River Phoenix, and Selena died.

You know that "WHOA" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"

You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.

You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

You begged for some GAK, and when you got that they came out with scented GAK, and when you got that they came out with funny scented GAK.....

You remember reading "Goosebumps"

You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.

You danced to "Wannabe" by the Spice Girls, Females: had a new motto, Males: got a whole lot gay-er. (so tell me what you want, what you really really want.)

You remember the craze, then the banning of slap bracelets and slam books.

You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence...Not...

You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record "Your FAVORITE song of ALL time"

Where in the world is Carmen San Diego? was both a game and a TV game show.

Captain Planet.

You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green Ranger were meant to be together. (this was meant for young 80s children)

When playing power rangers with friends you fought over who got to be who............and still all ended up being Tommy.

You remember when super Nintendos became popular.

You always wanted to send in a tape to America's Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching home alone 1, 2 , and 3........and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"

"I've fallen and I can't get up"

You remember going to the skating rink before there were in line skates

Two words... Trapper Keeper.

You wore socks over leggings scrunched down

"Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black, black, black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back, back, back" SHE ASKED HER MOTHER MOTHER MOTHER FOR FIFTY CENTS CENTS CENTS TO SEE THE ELEPHANTS PHANTS PHANTS JUMP OVER THE FENCE THE FENCE THE FENCE he jumped so high high high he touched the sky sky sky and he didn't come back back back til the forth of July ly ly he jumped so low ow ow he stubbed his toe toe toe and that's the end end end of the elephants show show show

You remember boom boxes vs. CD players

Writing M.A.S.H. notes.

You remember New Kids on The Block when they were cool

You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By The Bell"

You played and/or collected "Pogs"

You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet or Nano and brought it everywhere

You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles

Yikes pencils and erasers were the stuff!

All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.(pencils.notebooks.binders.etc.)

You remember when the new Beanie Babies and talking Elmo were always sold out.

You used to wear those stick on earrings, not only on your ears, but at the corners of your eyes.

You remember a time before the WB.

You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"

You know the Macarena by heart."

Talk to the hand" ... enough said

You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"

When light up sneakers were cool.

When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our Walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Way back.Before we realized all this would eventually disappear. Who would have thought you'd miss the 90's so much!!!!!


Thanks Alex for posting this on my bulletin! I would also like to add-

-Scented plastic Strawberry Shortcake dolls

-Champion sweatshirts, Umbro shorts, and Adidas sneakers

-When cereal came with prizes

-You still remember the hand signs to MC Hammer's 2 Ligit

Okay, who wants to play? What else do you remember?

Have you ever?

Taken a picture naked?
-Just a picture? Just one? No, I have never taken a picture naked!

Made out with a member of the same sex?
-Not yet, but that doesn't necessarily mean I wont!

Told a lie?
- If I said no would you believe me?

Had a one night stand?
- Not technically. At least, I don't think so...

Been in a fist fight?
- Nope. The closest I've come is an overly aggressive chest pass with a basketball. Yes, this was in high school gym class!

Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
- Hasn't everyone?

Been arrested?
- I wish I had done a few more 'crazy' things in high school so that I had some funny story to put here. The best I can do is the time I almost went swimming in the town pool in the middle of the night that one time.

Ditched school to have sex?
- My senior year I ditched school all the freakin' time. That was just one of my better reasons! (I would usually go in for my 'real' classes in the morning. I'd just leave at 11. It's not like I was learning anything anyway!)

Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?
- Yeah. I didn't know this was something all that shocking though. It's not like anything actually happened!

Seen someone die?
- Actually die? No. I have seen people who where in their final hours however.

Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
- As recently as yesterday in fact.

Played dress up?
- Not in quite a while. I think I may feel a Gothic Dress Up night coming on!

Fallen asleep at work/school
- As recently as a couple of hours ago in fact!

Touched a snake?
- Touched, held, let crawl all over me... I did draw the line at feeding it though!

Pole danced?
- Until I have a pole in the privacy of my own home it's not gonna happen! (Although, honestly, I'd kinda like to learn!)

Been lost?
-Can I quote Leah on this one? "Not lost, just misplaced for a moment."

Sang karaoke?
- We shall not speak of that night.

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
- Anyone who says no to this question is a lying.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
- Yup. Soda is the worst.

Kissed in the rain?
- I'm sure I must have, but I can't quite recall. *makes a mental note to do this as soon as possible, just to be on the safe side*

Sang in the shower?
- I do this often, loudly, poorly, and unapologetically!

Gave your private parts a nickname?
- I haven't, but that doesn't mean they've gone nickname-less!

Ever gone to school without underwear?
- Probably.

Sat on a roof top?
- Yup.

Broken a bone?
- Nope

Mooned/flashed someone?
- You know, I don't think so!

Slept naked?
- I do most of the time

Played a prank on someone?
- Yup. I'm especially proud of the 'ring in the toilet' incident with Rhonda, and taping up Chris's office door. Oh, and of course the 'Princess' incident. I wasn't there for that one, but I can take full credit for the idea!

Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
- Unfortunately

Cried over someone?
- Yup

Had sex more than 10 times in one day?
- 10?! I think my personal best is 8

Had/Have a dog?
- When I was really little we had a German Shepard named Jena.

Been in a band or played an instrument?
- Not yet, but I'm going to learn to play the cello. (Soon, I swear!)

Taken more than 10 shots of alcohol in one night?
- Not in shot form, but I've certainly had more than 10 shots worth of whiskey in one night!

simple huh?
now you do it
post it on your blog, or your bulletin, or where ever!

The Keirsey Bates MBTI personality test

INTP - the Architect
You scored 0% I to E, 42% N to S, 52% F to T, and 68% J to P!

You are more introverted than extroverted. You are more intuitive than observant, you are more thinking based than feeling based, and you prefer to go with the flow rather than have a routine. The single word to describe your type is the Architect, which belongs to the larger group of rationals. You wish to sculpt the world around you. Others often find you arrogant, yet you have no desire to direct others, only to inform them. You must know the structure of things, and have a voracious appetite for knowledge. You are very rational in everything you do, and probably consider yourself smarter than most.

As a romantic partner, you can be playful with great energy to get things started, but not quite as good on follow through. You may have a tendency to hurt the more emotional types unintentionally by not sharing your own reactions and feelings as you can get swept up in your own ideas and projects. You want to be appreciated for your ability to respond quickly and to fix problems creatively. You need plenty of time to yourself - therefore your parnter must respect your need for independence and originality.

Your group summary: Rationals (NT)

Your type summary: INTP

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 0% on I to E

You scored higher than 52% on N to S

You scored higher than 71% on F to T

You scored higher than 82% on J to P

Link: The LONG Scientific Personality Test written by unpretentious2 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Okay, does this really suprise anyone? Because it doesn't suprise me!

Which 80's Nintendo character turned you on the most?

You are most attracted to Link You like the brave and heroic kind and who doesn't? You would switch places with Zelda anyday. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com

What sexual activity will you go to jail for?

Aeryn will go to jail for ...

Setting your partners underwear on fire

'What sexual activity will you go to jail for?' at QuizUniverse.com

Who really needs underwear anyway?????? And I do like fire...

Rare Mirage Lasts for 4 Hours off East China Shore

Rare Mirage Lasts for 4 Hours off East China Shore



Thousands of tourists and local residents witnessed a mirage of high clarity lasting for four hours off the shore of Penglai City in east China's Shandong Province on Sunday.
Mists rising on the shore created an image of a city, with modern high-rise buildings, broad city streets and bustling cars as well as crowds of people all clearly visible.
The city of Penglai had been soaked by two days of rain before the rare weather phenomenon occurred.
The mirage took place during the week-long Labor Day holiday. The small city received over 30,000 tourists on Sunday.
Experts said that many mirages have been recorded in Penglai, on the tip of Shandong Peninsula, throughout history, which made it known as a dwelling place of the gods.
They explained that a mirage is formed when moisture in the air becomes warmer than the temperature of sea water, which refracts rays of sunlight to create reflections of the landscape in the sky.

This is amazing! I had always thought that mirages were more of an individual, neurological phenomena caused by delirium from lack of water, ect. Here is the How Stuff Works article on mirages. It's very basic, but will give you a good basic understanding of mirages. It has some good links at the end also, with more indepth explinations.
I do wonder though, was the mirage of Penglai City, or some other city?

eBay rules that New Zealand not for sale

eBay rules that New Zealand not for sale

SYDNEY, Australia -- New Zealand is not for sale, despite somebody in neighboring Australia trying to offload the nation of 4 million to the highest online bidder. With a starting offer of just one cent, brisk bidding for the prime chunk of South Pacific real estate quickly boosted the price to 3,000 Australian dollars (US$2,330) before eBay pulled the plug on the auction this week. "Clearly New Zealand is not for sale," eBay Australia spokesman Daniel Feiler told the New Zealand Press Association, adding that 22 bids had been made before the company acted. "It is mostly household items we have for sale, but there are the occasional quirky items put up," he added. "We have a look at them and if they are OK we leave them, but if it is something that can't be sold, we take them off." The trader has not been named, but apparently was unimpressed with the country he was trying to sell. The rivalry between the two countries is intense and in his advertisement the man said New Zealand had "very ordinary weather." (AP)

Damn, I was so exited at the thought of finally having my very own island.

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FREAK N BED TEST, I GOT A 53

*L* Okay, you all know that I don't believe in the whole 'Do this or else' thing, but well, I thought it's be fun to see who replied to this one!
And yeah, I have no idea how some of this relates to, well, anything!

GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND NUMBER IT FROM (1-13)
AND NO CHEATING!
SEE THE RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST!
WHEN YOU SEND IT ON PUT YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT BAR...

_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
(A) A LIGHT COLOR
(B) THEY CHANGE COLORS
(C) A DARK COLOR

2.IF YOU WERE TO MEET UP WITH THE CRUSH OF YOUR LIFE YOU WOULD...
(A) SEDUCE THEM
(B) JUST CHILL
(C) CHILL AND THEN SEDUCE THEM

3.WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF WEATHER?
(A) RAINY
(B) THUNDERSTORM
(C) SUNNY
(D) CLOUDY

4.WHATS THE BEST TYPE OF FRUIT?
(A) STRAWBERRYS
(B) CHERRYS
(C) GRAPES
(D) PEACHES
(E) KIWI

5.THE BEST PART OF THE 24 HOURS IS....
(A) NIGHT
(B) DAY
(C) AFTERNOON

6.WHATS THE BEST SEASON OF THE YEAR?
(A) FALL
(B) SUMMER
(C) SPRING
(D) WINTER

7.HEADBOARD OR NO HEADBOARD?

8.WHATS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?

9.PICK A PLACE YOU WOULD HAVE SEX AT OUT OF THESE...
(A) ASTRO VAN
(B) ON THE ROOF OF A BUILDING
(C) PARK
(D) ON AN AIR PLANE
(E) PARENTS ROOM
(F) ALL OF THE ABOVE

10.YOUR PHONE SERVICE?
(A) SPRINT/CINGULAR
(B) VERIZON
(C) T-MOBILE/NEXTEL
(D) ALLTEL
(E) CRICKET
(F) SUNCOM
(G) BOOST

11.PICK AN ANIMAL
(A) LION
(B) LIZARD
(C) SNAKE
(D) MONKEY

12.PICK A TOPPING
(A) CHOCLATE SYRUP
(B) HONEY
(C) WHIP CREAM
(D) NUTS

13.WHICH WAY?
(A) UP
(B) DOWN
(C) SIDEWAYS

NOW THINK OF THE PERSON YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON OR A PERSON WHOSE ASS YOU JUST WANNA SMACK

=========

***ANSWERS****
1.A. LIGHT COLOR------ (4) POINTS
B. CHANGE COLORS- (5) POINTS
C. DARK---------------- (4) POINTS

2.A. SEDUCE THEM--------------- (5) POINTS
B. JUST CHILL------------------- (2) POINTS
C. CHILL AND THEN SEDUCE- (4) POINTS

3.A. RAIN--------------- (3) POINTS
B. THUNDERSTORM- (5) POINTS
C. SUNNY------------- (4) POINTS
D. CLOUDY----------- (2) POINTS

4.A. STRAWBERRYS- (5) POINTS
B. CHERRYS-------- (4) POINTS
C. GRAPES---------- (3) POINTS
D. PEACHES-------- (4) POINTS
E. KIWI-------------- (5) POINTS

5.A. NIGHT-------- (4) POINTS
B. DAY----------- (3) POINTS
C. AFTERNOON- (5) POINTS

6.A. FALL-------- (3) POINTS
B. SUMMMER- (4) POINTS
C. SPRING---- (2) POINTS
D. WINTER--- (5) POINTS

7.-HEADBOARD-------- (5) POINTS-
NO HEADBOARD-- (2) POINTS

8.LEO---------- (5) POINTS
VIRGO------- (5) POINTS
SCORPIO--- (5) POINTS
LIBRA-------- (3) POINTS
GEMINI------ (4) POINTS
ARIES-------- (3) POINTS
CAPRICORN- (3) POINTS
CANCER------ (4) POINTS
PISCES------- (5) POINTS
AQUARIUS--- (4) POINTS
TAURUS------ (5) POINTS
SAGITARIUS- (4) POINTS

9.A. ASRTO VAN------------------------------ (3) POINTS
B. ON THE ROOF TOP OF A BUILDING- (4) POINTS
C. PARK------------------------------------- (2) POINTS
D. AIR PLANE------------------------------- (5) POINTS
E. PARENTS ROOM------------------------ (5) POINTS
F. ALL OF THE ABOVE-------------------- (10) POINTS

10.A. SPRINT/CINGULAR- (5) POINTS
B. VERIZON------------- (4) POINTS
C. T-MOB./NEXTEL----- (3) POINTS
D. ALTEL----------------- (5) POINTS
E. CRICKET-------------- (2) POINTS
F. SUNCOM-------------- (3) POINTS
G. BOOST MOB---------- (4) POINTS

11.A. LION------ (5) POINTS
B. LIZARD--- (3) POINTS
C. SNAKE--- (4) POINTS
D. MONKEY- (3) POINTS

12.A. CHOCLATE SYRUP- (3) POINTS
B. HONEY--------------- (2) POINTS
C. WHIP CREAM------- (5) POINTS
D. NUTS----------------- (3) POINTS

13.A. UP----------- (2) POINTS
B. DOWN------ (3) POINTS
C. SIDEWAYS- (5) POINTS

NOW ADD THE POINTS UP (FOR THE SLOW ONES)SCORES!!!!!

25-34= PRIESTS SON/DAUGHTER. MIGHT AS WELL SAVE IT TILL MARRIAGE.

35-49= PRETTY FREAKY BUT THERES STILL A COUPLE OF TRICKS U CAN LEARN... FROM ME.

50-65= TOTAL OUTRAGEOUS FREAK! OMG! CALL ME!!!! NO SERIOUSLY START DIALING!

***NOW REPOST THIS IN THE NEXT 2 MINUTESAND YOU WILL HAVE GOOD LUCK WITHTHE PERSON YOU THOUGHT OF!REPOST AS: FREAK N BED TEST, I GOT A (your score)

twice nice

TWO NAMES YOU GO BY
1. Aeryn
2. ***** (In the real world)

TWO PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
1. English
2. Dutch

TWO THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. Black Old Navy 'yoga' pants
2. Red tank top

TWO THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP
1. communication
2. creativity

TWO OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES
1. reading
2. creating collages

TWO THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD NOW
1. some juice
2. To have ***** **** *** (This answer edited to keep the crazy in my head contained)

TWO PETS YOU HAVE/HAD
1. Kai
2. Blacky (When I was in younger)

TWO PEOPLE WHO WILL FILL THIS OUT
1. Ummm. Patience would, except she already did it.
2. Probably no one :(

TWO THINGS YOU DID LAST NIGHT
1. Ate a really bad for me pot pie
2. Watched a movie

TWO FAVORITE PLACES TO EAT
1. Bove's
2. Chipotle

TWO PEOPLE THAT LIVE IN YOUR HOUSE
1. Myself
2. Xombii

TWO THINGS YOU ATE TODAY
1. Oreos
2. cherry cordial Hershey Kisses

TWO PEOPLE YOU LAST TALKED TO
1. Xombii
2. Bev

TWO THINGS YOU'RE DOING TOMORROW
1. Work
2. do some writing

TWO LONGEST CAR RIDES
1. VT to MN
2. VT to VA & back

TWO FAVORITE HOLIDAYS---birthdays aren't holidays
1. Christmas
2. Labor Day

50 questions

1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I have a 3/4" or so long scar on the underside of my chin. I got it by being a moron. I decided to try climbing over a gate in sandals and a dress, instead of going around it. Yes, I was very drunk. I fell on my face, and split my chin wide open. Then I proceeded to try to convince the folks I was with that I was in fact not hurt very bad, despite the fact that there was a 1/4" wide gap in my face. Happily, they made me go get stitches. Don't drink & climb kids! Just don't do it.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Paint

3. WOULD YOU RATHER PLAY FOOTBALL OR WATCH IT?
American football, or soccer? Hell, who am I kidding, I don't want to play or watch either!

4. WHAT SPORT WOULD YOU SAY YOU ARE BEST AT?
Does wasting time count? How about neurotic organization? Because if it does, I would win the world championship!

5. WHAT IS/WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE?
All of my worst nightmares just leave me with vague images, but very distinct emotions.

6. WHAT DO YOU DO TO EXERCISE?
I run around making photocopies all day at work, I walk a lot. (No car, by choice) I'd like to say I do yoga, but I don't do it enough for it to count. I find ways to keep active though....

7. APPLES OR ORANGES?
Oranges

8. GRAPES OR WATERMELON?
Kiwi?

9. WOLVES OR TIGERS?
Both

10. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
worst question ever

11. HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN POETRY?
yup

12. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
3:55am My mom would answer this question with 'Late!' (By 6 days)

13. WOULD YOU CALL YOURSELF A ROMANTIC PERSON?
I can be, when some one inspires me to be romantic

14. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?
yeah, like I'm going to tell you that!

15. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN?
Getting caught up on other myspace stuff, and my emails

16. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GUM?
Cinnamon flavored sugar free Trident, or Dentene

17. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE?
Creative Confectioners. (Those of you also in MN, check them out! They're local, and damn near orgasmic-ly good!)

18. FAVORITE CANDY (NON CHOCOLATE)
Swedish fish

19. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA ICE-CREAM?
vanilla

20. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER?
Hells yeah!

21. FAVORITE PERFUME?
Anything not too floral. I like lavender, and 'green' scents. Anything that doesn't give me a migraine makes me pretty happy though!

22. DO YOU OWN A INSTRUMENT?
A Cello

23. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE (OPPOSITE SEX)?
What would you think if I said nothing? Hmmm? Why the blind assumption that all survey takers are heterosexual?

24. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Vermont in the fall, rain, green growing things

25. FAVORITE SOUND?
the voices of people I love, thunder

26. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?
Going outside & enjoying the nice weather

27. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
nope

28. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE NOW?
Oh hell yes.

29. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY MOVIE OF ALL TIME?
Lady & the Tramp. Or maybe The Fox & the Hound

30. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME?
I refuse to answer this question on grounds of it's stupidity

31. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Usually blue, sometimes they change to green or gray

32. DO YOU OR HAVE YOU EVER SLEPT WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
I have, and am not too proud to say that I still have two on my bed

33. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR GENDER OF CHOICE?
This is such an inane, irrelevant to everything question. I suppose I'd say clean & bug free.

34. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO SOMEONE OF OPPOSITE SEX?
I refuse to answer this one on grounds of the bees in my bonnet are buzzing too loudly for me to think! (See my answer to #23)

35. WHO OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS (SAME SEX) HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST? Tanya. And why same sex? Hmmm?

36. SUNRISE OR SUNSET?
sunset

37. WHERE AT?
Where at for what? A sunrise or sunset? Where am I at now? Where my bitches & hos at? Come on now, really.... *L*

38. (FOR THE LADIES, BE TRUTHFUL) WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
Irrelevant!

39. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES THAT YOU HAVE SEEN THIS YEAR?
If you mean new movie, I don't think I've seen 5 new movies this year. But I'll see what I can this of... I really liked Night Watch, and Silent Hill wasn't too bad. I think those are the only new movies I've seen this year.

40. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON?
Irrelevant!

41. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
not yet

42. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)
Hmmm, don't know. Maybe because those damn bees are acting up again!

43. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER?
It's like Lay's chips, I can't pick just one!

44. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
Ummm, all of them?

45. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
Black as night, sweet as sin? Wait, no, that's not me, that's Zorya Vechernyaya, Zorya Utreeyaya, Zorya Polunochnaya, and Czernobog. Or at least Neil Gaiman's version of them from American Gods. I don't really like coffee.

46. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? Absolutely

47. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? With actions, not words

48. BLONDES REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES
Irrelevant

49. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
Probably my mom, but I keep in contact with most everyone else by way of the Internet

50. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
The fact that I feel compelled to fill out these surveys!

3D Sidewalk chalk artist - Amazing!

Julian Beever is an English artist who's famous for his art on the pavement of England, Fra
nce, Germany, USA, Australia and Belgium . Beever gives to his drawings an amazing 3D illusion.

You can view more of his art here.


This drawing of a Rescue was to be viewed using an inverting mirror.

tattoos

1. How many tattoos do you have?
One, but it's sizable

2. When did you get your first tattoo?
2001

3. What was your first tattoo?
It's a butterfly. yeah, yeah, I know what you're thinking. But it has huge personal significance to me, the shape of the wings, the colors, the designs in the eye spots, all of it.

4. Which tattoo is closest to your heart (not in a literal sense... I mean as far as emotional attachment goes)?
Well, having one makes that pretty easy, huh?

5. Do you have a matching tattoo with someone?
nope

6. Do you have a tattoo that someone fucked up?
Nope. I waited until I could go to a skilled professional.

7. Do you have anyone's name tattooed on you?
Hells no!

8. What was the most painful tattoo you received?
Again, having just one(for now) makes that pretty easy, huh?

9. Have you ever cried during a tattoo?
Nope

10. Have you ever had to have a tattoo artist stop in the middle of a session because it was just too painful?
I'd like to quote Joe Boo on this one- "Wouldn't that make it the end of the session?" And, no.

11. Do you have a tattoo that you constantly have to explain to people because no one can tell what the hell it is?
Nope. Again, I waited until I could go to a skilled professional

12. Have you ever gotten an infection from a tattoo?
Nope. I actually kept it clean and took care of it after I got it. And I went to a reputable shop instead of getting it down in some dirty, shady back room place that doesn't sterilize their equipment & tools!

13. What is the longest session you've ever sat straight through?
About 4 hours

14. What is the biggest tattoo that you have and how long did it take altogether?
Again, having just one (for now) makes that pretty easy, huh? 8 hours in so far, 2 more to go.

15. Have you ever gotten a tattoo of something just because it was funny or shocking?
Nope. It's kinda permanent to get something for the shock value, don't you think?

16. Do you have any unfinished projects on you right now?
Well, my butterfly needs a little more work. Also, it's going to be a full back piece someday...

17. What is the most you've ever spent on a tattoo?
Well, I can tell you that Bald Bill works for no less than $125 an hour. (He is a very talented artist, so yes, it is worth it!) I have 8 hours so far, about 2 more to go. You do the math.

18. Has anyone (i.e. parents or girlfriend/boyfriend) gotten pissed at you when you got a tattoo?
My mom was surprised, but knew that since I was a grown up I was going to do my own thing!

19. Do you have any tattoos in places that most people don't get to see unless they see you naked?
Nope

20. Do you have any people tattooed on you?
Nope

21. Are you worried about what your tattoos will look like when you get old?
Not even a little

22. Do you regret having gotten any of your tattoos?
Nope

23. Would you consider ever getting any of your tattoos removed?
If I don't regret them, why would I remove them?

24. I know this is a hard one, but what is your favorite tattoo?
Again, having just one(for now) makes that pretty easy, huh?

Playlist

Okay, I'm going to do something a little different today. I'm not quite ready to talk about what's been going on lately, so I'm going to put down the lyrics for the songs that I have been listening to a lot, and are descriptive of how I'm feeling.

The Loudest Sound - The Cure
Side by side in silence
They pass away the day
So comfortable, so habitual ...
And so nothing left to say
...
And side by side in silence
Without a single word...
...
It's the loudest sound I ever heard


Underneath the Ice - Assemblage 23
I can feel the violence
Spill across the floor
My eyes have grown too clouded
To see it anymore

Fading into nothing
Turning into steam
Left in desparation
With nothing to redeem

Underneath the ice I find
A place to rest my weary mind
The cold deep water numbs my pain
Until I can face myself again

Waiting for redemption
That never seems to come
Hands reach beneath the surface
But I don't know where from

I'm not ready to return yet
I just need a moment more
So I can try to remember
What it is I came here for

Underneath the ice I find
A place to rest my weary mind
The cold deep water numbs my pain
Until I can face myself again

Sinking Fast
Too dark to see
The buzzing din
Envelopes me
Too late now
Nowhere to go
I'm sinking in
The undertow


Cooling - Tori Amos
Maybe I didn't like to hear
But I still can't believe
Speed Racer is dead
So then I thought I'd make some plans
But fire thought she'd really rather be water instead
...
And I've heard every word that you have said
And I know I have been driven like the snow
This is cooling
Faster than I can
This is cooling
Faster than I can
...
So then love walked up to like
And said I know that you don't like me much
Let's go for a ride
...
And I've heard every word that you have said
And I know I have been driven like the snow, but
This is cooling
Faster than I can
Hey yes, faster than I can
Hey, this is cooling
This is cooling

Love Will Tear Us Apart -Joy Division
When routine bites hard,
And ambitions are low,
And resentment rides high,
But emotions won't grow,
And we're changing our ways,
Taking different roads.

Then love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Why is the bedroom so cold?
You've turned away on your side.
Is my timing that flawed?
Our respect runs so dry.
Yet there's still this appeal
That we've kept through our lives.

But love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

You cry out in your sleep,
All my failings exposed.
And there's a taste in my mouth,
As desperation takes hold.
Just that something so good
Just can't function no more.

But love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.


Signal To Noise - The Cure
Nothing I do makes much sense
Say you don't really get me anymore
I wonder if you ever did... if you ever did at all?

Nothing I want means a lot
Say you don't understand me like before
I'm not sure if you ever did... if you ever did at all?

Nothing I think has a point
Say you don't quite believe me anymore
I wonder if you ever did... if you ever did at all?

Gets hard to guess the best way through
The thing to do if none of this is true
I wish I knew how to undo
The doubt I hide inside
I grew in you...

The knot I hide inside I tied in you...

Nothing I am shows the way
Say you don't seem to know me like before
I'm not sure if you ever did... if you ever did at all?

No nothing I do makes much sense
Say you don't really get me anymore
I wonder if you ever did... if you ever did at all?

Gets hard to guess the best way through
The thing to do if none of this is true
I wish I knew how to undo
The knot I tied in you...
When more or less the yes and no
Is all for show it isn't really so...
Look high and low where did we go?
You moved too fast or maybe I just moved too slow?

There's so much noise...
All the signal seems to fade away
Too much noise...

Or could be this is how it always sounds
With nothing left?


Northern Lad-Tori Amos
Had a northern lad
Well not exactly had
He moved like the sunset
God who painted that
First he love my accent
How his knees could bend
I thought we'd be ok
Me and my molasses

But I feel someting is wrong
But I feel this cake just isn't done
Don't say that you Don't
And if you could see me now
Said if you could see me now
Girls you've got to know
When it's time to turn the page
When you're only wet
Because of the rain

He don't show much these days
It's gets so fucking cold
I loved his secret places
But I can't go anymore
"you change like sugar cane"
Says me northern lad
I guess you go too far
When pianos try to be guitars

I feel the west in you
And I feel it falling apart too

Don't say that you Don't

And if you could see me now

Said if you could see me now
Girls you've got to know
When it's time to turn the page
When you're only wet
Because of the rain
When you're only wet
Because of the rain


Cocoon - Assemblage 23
Even though I know it's only chemical
These peaks and valleys are beginning to take their toll
Try to convince myself that all it takes is time
But the most derisive voice I hear is mine

It opens all the scars on me
It leaves me shaken in my belief
It takes my hand just to drag me down
It makes me a stranger in the crowd

Give me isolation just for now
I feel a hard rain coming down
I promise that I will be back soon
But for now I'll return to my cocoon

There is thunder in the distance and the sky grows gray
There is lightning in the clouds in search of prey
It's not a matter of if as much as when
The clouds will break and the rainfall will begin

It opens all the scars on me
It leaves me shaken in my belief
It takes my hand just to drag me down
It makes me a stranger in the crowd

Give me isolation just for now
I feel a hard rain coming down
I promise that I will be back soon
But for now
I'll return to my cocoon

Cracks in the chrysalis spread out like tiny snakes
That hiss a litany of rumors and mistakes
But I'm afraid their cause is fraught with futility
There is nothing more that they can take from me
It opens all the scars on meIt leaves me shaken in my belief
It takes my hand just to drag me down
It makes me a stranger in the crowd

Give me isolation just for now
I feel a hard rain coming down
I promise that I will be back soon
But for now I'll return to my cocoon








Comments:

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Xombii
05/16/06 01:01 AM

I understand, but I believe that we will be alright. I believe in you, I believe in me, and I believe in us. I have played this song over and over, It says what I am feeling almost perfectly (especially the parts I have highlighted). Remember that I love you, and that I will always love you.

-Buttercup

Tell her not to go
I ain't holding on no more
Tell her something in my mind freezes up from time to time

Tell her not to cry
I just got scared that's all
Tell her I'll be by her side, all she has to do is call

Tell her the chips are down
I drank too much and shouted it aloud
Tell her something in my heart
Needs her more than even clouns need the laughter of the crowd

Tell her what was wrong
I sometimes think too much
But say nothing at all
Tell her from this high Terrain, I am ready now to fall

Tell her not to go
I Ain't holding on no more
Tell her nothing if not this; all I want to do is kiss her

Tell her somthing in my mind
Freezes up from time to time


_______________________________________________________


Patience
05/17/06 9:28AM

Hey baby. I'm sorry that you're hurting right now. I wish I could be there to give you a huge hug... I will be in a couple of days and even if you can't come to my mama's house, I will try to get over to your house - even for an hour - just so I can give you a hug.

I love you Trish!

Patience

Doing the right thing sucks

It sure as hell doesn't make a hard thing any easier because you know it's right.



I think perhaps that's really all I have to say right now.

*Thinks about it for a minute.*

Yup, it is.

Damen Station in Chicago - Digitally Created Art

Damen Station on the Blue Line of the Chicago Transit Authority

This is really impressive! Close ups are avalible on the website.

Never Brush Your Teeth Again? or, War Tech That Changed Life

Inventions that Began on the Battlefield Thrive in the Home

There's a new product in development that could change your nightly ritual forever.

The Wrigley Gum Company has paired up with the U.S. military to create an anti-bacterial chewing gum that actually cleans teeth so soldiers wouldn't have to stop what they're doing to brush their pearly whites.

If the military signs on to it, there's a good chance it will end up in your medicine cabinet one day.

Other military inventions that we now use daily include:
-The steam engine

-The microwave oven

-Many hiking boots are made from the same materials. as the military's stealth jet technology.

-The Medevac helicopter

-The "trench coat" got its name from soldiers in World War I who wore the military jackets in the trenches.

-And of course, what one Pentagon officials dubbed the "Intergalactic Network." Which is what became the internet.

Time To BBQ

After the long months of cold and winter, we will soon be coming up to summer, and BBQ season. Therefore it is important to refresh your memory on the etiquette of this sublime outdoor cooking, as it's the only type of cooking a real man will do; probably because there is an element of danger involved.

When a man volunteers to do the BBQ the following chain of events are put into motion:


Routine...
1) The woman buys the food.

2) The woman makes the salad, prepares the vegetables, and makes dessert.

3) The woman prepares the meat for cooking, places it on a tray along with the necessary cooking utensils and sauces, and takes it to the man who is lounging beside the grill - beer in hand.

Here comes the important part:
4) THE MAN PLACES THE MEAT ON THE GRILL.

More routine....
5) The woman goes inside to organize the plan and cutlery.

6) The woman comes out to tell the man that the meat is burning. He thanks her and asks if she will bring another beer while he deals with the situation.

Another Important part:
7) THE MAN TAKES THE MEAT OFF THE GRILL AND HANDS IT TO THE WOMAN.

More routine.....

8) The woman prepares the plates, salad, bread, utensils, napkins, sauces and brings them to the table.

9) After eating, the woman clears the table and does the dishes.

And most important of all:
10) Everyone PRAISES the MAN and THANKS HIM for his cooking efforts.

11) The man asks the woman how she enjoyed "her night off."

Upon seeing her annoyed reaction, he concludes
that there's just no pleasing some women....








Comments:

Xombii
05/05/06 12:17 PM

PH33R MY L337 PH00D BURN!NG SK!LLZ

Silent Hill

Going to see it today finally! Hell yeah!